BlogHide Resteemsastrick (36)in words • 6 years agoWords 4.8.19So what am, I wonder? To so many of you. The pathetic needy one? Because I’m here? To have your back To hold you down To help you out. Because I’m not like you all I’m not like this world.…astrick (36)in words • 6 years agoMonday......Mid-day Monday Sitting here at my desk My mind wanders To you I lose focus I can’t seem to catch my breath But I can feel you Your lips on my skin Your hands on my hips Your body pressed to…astrick (36)in words • 6 years agoWrongYou know that feeling that this isn’t the life you were made for? You’re in the wrong space. You’re in the wrong time. It’s all just wrong. But you can’t make the changes your soul needs. Too…astrick (36)in words • 6 years agoWords 4.4.19Thursday morning Coffee Traffic Cigarette And all I can think of is you Wondering if anyone will ever love me the way you did Wondering if I’ve already used up all my great loves You…astrick (36)in words • 6 years agoWhat IfWhat if I told you I don't want to be friends What if I told you that I can't What if I told you that I want you all the time What if I told you that I know it's too late What if I told you that…astrick (36)in words • 6 years agoRememberI wish that I could remind you just how good we were I wish that I could remember myself I remember feeling safe I remember feeling warm I remember feeling I remember laughing Loving…astrick (36)in words • 6 years agoWords 3.13.19Look, I know its none of my business who you do whatever with. I get that. I understand that. I don’t report to you any change in my relationships. (Which, by the way, are non-existent right now and…astrick (36)in words • 6 years agoItalian Food 2719Learning to forgive myself Accepting all the things I am Striving for inner peace Allowing myself to make mistakes Growing a little every day Never giving up All the things you taught meastrick (36)in words • 6 years ago10/24/18Something feels a bit off. I can’t tell what it is though. I feel like something is missing. I try to keep pushing, keep smiling. Keep on keeping on, I guess. But there is this emptiness, an aching…astrick (36)in words • 6 years agoAirI can’t breathe You’re not listening I can’t breathe Why don’t you hear me It’s all closing in I need air The darkness I can feel it I can’t breathe I need air Help me Save meastrick (36)in words • 7 years agoDanced in the flamesSo I woke up wondering what the hell I'm so afraid of. I've lived hell. I've danced in the flames, and come out just fine on the other side. A few burns, yes, but still standing through it all. And…astrick (36)in bad • 7 years agoToo many words. Need to stop talkingYes, yes you are splendid. And since you likely won't read all of this anyway, fuck it, let's go for broke. I've been stuck on you for what? A year or so? And yes there was the whole ***** scenario…astrick (36)in words • 7 years agoughhhhhhhhhhhoh but that stupid grin. and that laugh. those eyes. those hands. and that hair... that god damned hair. that strength. that courage. that... oh whats the word? There is no word. It's just you. and…astrick (36)in words • 7 years agoFamiliarSo, I want to be upset and broken and defeated and all these tragic things that I'm so good at. But somehow I'm not. Don't get me wrong, I am, for lack of better terms, disappointed. You had so…astrick (36)in words • 7 years agoFall in loveI wake every morning, wanting to be in love again. I try to sleep every night and dream of all the fairy tales I've written a hundred times in my head. Today? Today feels different. Like magic and…astrick (36)in words • 7 years agowhat ifI saw you coming. I saw you and this coming a million miles away. I tried to avoid it. I tried to ignore it. I tried to keep my distance. But damn, you're most things that I think I need, and some…astrick (36)in words • 7 years ago1.8.18All she wanted was someone to stay. Someone who wasn't afraid. Someone who could love her scars. Who could help heal the open wounds. She didn't want someone to save her. She wasn't so much the…astrick (36)in words • 7 years agoher passionHe said he loved her passion. He said that it was one of his favorite things about her. And she loved that someone did. But she started to wonder if he knew what that meant. Or if he was just now…astrick (36)in words • 7 years agoChristmas 2017You make my soul tired. I don't want you here spreading your negative energy through every corner of my home. Through the laughter and lights. The paper and bows. You said you wouldn't be here and I…astrick (36)in words • 7 years agowordsi have this incredible ache in my chest. i have no idea where it's originating from. is it the ache of all the what should have/could have/would have beens? or is it an ache for something new? am i…