BlogHide Resteemsjohnadams00 (38)in autism • 7 years agoI hate autism and bi-polarAnd the only thing that works is cannabis oil but it's illegal. I'm tired of suffering and not having a purpose. I have no idea what to do. I'm tired. Can't even go in public..johnadams00 (38)in worthless • 7 years agotired of being a worthless retardtired of being a worthless retardtired of being a worthless retardtired of being a worthless retardtired of being a worthless retardtired of being a worthless retardtired of being a worthless…johnadams00 (38)in depression • 7 years agoSometimes I want to dieI've been in bad shape especially the past 20 years, 35 now. Mild autism and bi-polar with a nerve disorder has made things unbearable and I don't have a single friend. And the one medication that…johnadams00 (38)in bible • 7 years agoDaily Bible Verse - Psalm 73:26Please message me for any prayer requests!johnadams00 (38)in bible • 7 years agoDaily Bible Verse Art - Matthew 5:11johnadams00 (38)in organization • 7 years agoGet Organized!Get Organized! (click for the video, still trying to figure that out. Maybe I should be better organized.) Number One Tip! Get a Moleskine Notebook! 4. Moleskine Notebookjohnadams00 (38)in introduceyourself • 7 years agoMy First Video (A Christian with Aspergers who loves Cannabis)My First YouTube Video: A Christian with Aspergers. (It's about 5 year old but I'm generally the same. A bit different knowing about the Autism part the past 5 for sure. (video in this link)…johnadams00 (38)in christian • 7 years agoHow Bad do you Want Jesus? Where are Your Passions?Have you been knocking and seeking with all your might and strength in desperation?Have you been reading His Word and crying in prayer desperate for His Love? Do you wake up asking God this; “how…johnadams00 (38)in drug • 7 years agoExploring SyntheticsExploring Synthetics This video below by Alexandar Shulgun called "Dirty Pictures is great underrated film and lets you into the one of the greatest minds in the history of Chemistry I was…johnadams00 (38)in poem • 7 years agoFade AwayFade Away Colors they all fade away, life I feel I cannot stay Life expected nowhere near, death and darkness now I fear Time I see is breaking down, smiling faces turn to frown Traded jewels…johnadams00 (38)in drugs • 7 years agoDrunken College Grad With Honors Terrorizes Neighbors in UnderwearDrunken College Grad With Honors Terrorizes Neighbors in Underwear Carpe diem – “Seize the Day”And seize the day I did, drunk and in my underwear the night of my college graduation. It was a…johnadams00 (38)in drugs • 7 years agoResearch Chemicals; the Adventures of a PsychonautResearch Chemicals; the Adventures of a Psychonaut There are many things in life we seem to want to keep secret because of shame (or possible fine lines of legality!). But there is also a time…johnadams00 (38)in autism • 7 years agoI hate autismI'm sure I wouldn't be a great person without high functioning autism but it would make a lot of things like dealing with people hard. I think people don't feel like I'm frendly and think I'm weird…johnadams00 (38)in cannabis • 7 years agoI don't want to try and keep doing thisI don't have any friends. I'm just tired, what should I do, write poetry and while people are getting $500 a post nothing I post. I just feel worthless. I'm smart, but kind of screwed up from…johnadams00 (38)in trump • 7 years agoTrump Gold $100 Bill and Silver RoundI bought both of these and they are actually good quality. Trump $100 Novelty Bill $2.50 + $2.99 shipping And the silver coin (not silver bullion, or worth anything, but fun to have) Trump…johnadams00 (38)in coin • 7 years agoCollecting US Coins: 1913 Barber Half DollarI mainly collect silver US coins that are 90% silver, make in 1964 or prior. In 1965, the government took all the value out backing the money so this is why investing money in different places like…johnadams00 (38)in autism • 7 years agoA Day With Autism/AspergersI wan't very social since I could walk and didn't ever like to be held. I wouldn't like showers or being in the sun. At age 30 a doctor told me it was from the high functioning autism. I've been…johnadams00 (38)in cannabis • 7 years agoCannabis oil Is a Miracle for Autism/I collect aluminum cans and other metals like brass, coper, gold, and silver (old coins too!)I walk 6-12 miles a day in the Denver Area once a week every week to pick up cans (and trash when I am able to) almost every Monday. I'm collecting cans so I walk with a bag. But please look out…johnadams00 (38)in health • 7 years agoWhat if I posted every one of my cuts and burns when I almost lost limbs over from PTSD from a very mesed u place having Aspergers. Also CANNABIS/kratomI cant take this anymore. I feel people push all the crap to the side and never dealt with it. Socitey won't even allow me to get cannabis TRIM, not event the stuff that is for getting high, high…johnadams00 (38)in crime • 7 years agoDoes anyone think about all the bad stuff that only you knew about? Only we know how bad we really are so is our ego just ignoring all that, the "Shadow"...What about the people I knew where they were buried but I don't want them to end up having me end up killed.