BlogHide Resteemskintsukuroi (35)in semicolon • 5 years agoLabel me ;I recently got diagnosed with autism. I join the ranks of several other people who were diagnosed with borderline personality disorder incorrectly. Whilst I have never been keen on labels I had…kintsukuroi (35)in friends4life • 6 years agogoodbye for now but not foreverI have had @ratticus with me for just over a week and they left this morning. It has been challenging because in that time I've had to face some truths. Filling out paperwork on my lousy range of…kintsukuroi (35)in chronicillness • 6 years agoI’m still standing... justI’m seriously been battered about lately physically and mentally and recovery time takes longer and longer. I’m a bit perturbed by a somewhat compliment my psychologist made to me today. They said…kintsukuroi (35)in depression • 6 years agoavoidanceI have for a while now avoided looking at steemit. After all if I don't load it and don't write in here (as promised completely honest) then maybe I don't have the issues I'm suffering? An internet…kintsukuroi (35)in depression • 6 years agoBrokenI had an extremely long day. The kind where I actually started breaking apart. Where you are so desperate for help you are actually willing to make the phone calls but you don’t actually know whom…kintsukuroi (35)in emotions • 6 years agoHateRight now I hate you. Except I don’t hate you. I keep being open and honest and you make it so easy to do that. So I hate you because I am not feeling the strongest. Because I am now well aware of…kintsukuroi (35)in depression • 6 years agoOver...Over tired and over being tired. Trying to self care by reading. Trying...kintsukuroi (35)in depression • 6 years agoBrain defectI would like to report a brain defect. Despite daily patching (medication) there seems to be an error in the tearduct.exe. I’ve run several shutdown commands and it still doesn’t seem to be…kintsukuroi (35)in job • 6 years agoJobApplied for my almost perfectly described dream job. Damn I wants it so much. My precious.kintsukuroi (35)in depression • 6 years agoHurtI want to hurt myself. I can’t though. Doing so would hurt those whom deeply care about me and I can’t inflict that kind of pain on them. But I so desperately want to scream, tear flesh, cut away…kintsukuroi (35)in depression • 6 years agoPorridgeI’ve been feeling sensitive lately and have spent way to much time hiding in my bed. It’s a safe place. Often I curl up on my husbands side. It smells of him. He is safe. But there have been times…kintsukuroi (35)in depression • 6 years agoI know the feeling of aloneI don’t get a silent night or day in my head. The simple fact is that I can’t see, hear or do anything without my brain linking it to a time, a place or a person. So when I do have those brief…kintsukuroi (35)in depression • 6 years agoDrugged and addledYesterday morning despite waking up feeling fine things went downhill fast. Driving my daughter to school I felt pain in my lower back. I ended up pulling in to the Dr’s instead of going to work…kintsukuroi (35)in depression • 6 years agoDamnit...Good news can sometimes lead to tears. However they are generally tears of joy. Tonight I received a promotion through St John Ambulance Australia where I teach youth members to be first aiders and…kintsukuroi (35)in depression • 6 years agoHugI need a hug. The kind of bug that engulfs you, that has pressure in it. Enough pressure to help calm my psychotic brain from being such a jackass. But hubby isn’t home. I have a friend that I…kintsukuroi (35)in anxiety • 6 years agoFlirtingI haven’t posted for a while. Between work and playing single mum whilst hubby was away doing a multiple day St John Ambulance duty O haven’t really opened steemit. Also being truly honest I…kintsukuroi (35)in depression • 6 years agorisks (and quotes)“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.” ― Anais Nin This is one of my favourite quotes and seems so aptly appropriate of late.…kintsukuroi (35)in mentalhealth • 6 years agoobservationsI realised the other day that how well I tend to look after myself is proportioned to how well I feel loved and cared for by others.kintsukuroi (35)in mentalhealth • 6 years agoA little more meAt the start of the year I had a friendship take a nasty hit and despite assurances and promises that this friend of mine wouldn't cut me off, did just that. Of course it's far more complicated than…kintsukuroi (35)in labels • 6 years agoLabels*** WARNING: This post contains themes that may be distressing. *** I watched this video today and it left me seriously thinking about labels and having any diagnosis. I am not one for…
