BlogHide Resteemsshawnamawna (65)in life • 5 years agoI Miss People WatchingMy mom used to take me to the mall and park me on a bench with a pretzel from Auntie Annie's. From that perch, we would watch families and solo shoppers pass. My mom would point out particular…shawnamawna (65)in introduceyourself • 5 years agoHello Again! My Steemit Re-IntroductionMy marriage ended about two years ago. The divorce came later. In between, my ex-husband and I both moved on to new loves. He is engaged to his partner and has primary custody of our three kids (a…shawnamawna (65)in life • 5 years agoThen there was youThe story of this heart is that it was born beating in shadow. Eventually the shadow resolved in darkness. This heart was a bleeding wound I learned to wall to keep the daggers out. Bricks, mud…shawnamawna (65)in life • 6 years agoSome Reassembly RequiredI just got back from a mid-week trip to Detroit for the opening Tigers vs. Royals game. The trip was a birthday adventure for one of my closest friends. When she was a kid, her family always went to…shawnamawna (65)in life • 6 years agoConfessions of a Divorced Lesbian BaristaIt feels like years ago that I came out on Steemit. I love how caring this community was. It was and still is hard to accept myself as a queer woman after being hetero married for 20 years and…shawnamawna (65)in ulog • 6 years agoEvolution of a drag kingI’ve been dabbling in something new these past few weeks. It all started about three months ago when I saw my first drag show. I walked in knowing what a queen was, but had no clue such things as…shawnamawna (65)in blog • 6 years agoWant to up your blogging game? Read on!I'm very excited to share that I have, with Center Director Stacia M. Fleegal, developed an online course for finding your blogging voice and niche. It launches September 11, and I would LOVE to…shawnamawna (65)in ulog • 6 years agoWriting Hard Stories? I have two private client openings for September!I have two private client openings for September. Possibilities are manuscript development, review and one-on-one coaching for fiction, poetry and nonfiction. Hard stories are my specialty. Contact…shawnamawna (65)in ulog • 6 years agoA Letter to Myself: Slow Down the Love TrainDear Shawna, Don't fuck this up. Play it cool. Yeah, she's cute. Really cute. And you dig her voice/look/vibe, but don't fold. Hang back. Let her notice you for a change. You are forever pursuing…shawnamawna (65)in ulog • 6 years agoPoem from a Broken Heart No. 36I sit next to you and bleed hard plastic chairs, our elbows bumping up against your scent heart raging to fire unexpectedly the woman behind us takes your hand caresses it the way I want to.…shawnamawna (65)in ulog • 6 years agoHow My Heart BrokeYou switched off faster than light but I can’t return my favor. I’ve been on for months now hoping to find you, walls down stumble over your heart (or close) find your eyes wide looking to me…shawnamawna (65)in life • 6 years agoThen there was youThe story of this heart is that it was born beating in shadow. Eventually the shadow resolved in darkness. This heart was a bleeding wound I learned to wall to keep the daggers out. Bricks, mud…shawnamawna (65)in life • 6 years agoRelationship GoalsIs it greedy to want you to think of me one quarter of how often I think of you (which is, honestly, less than when I breathe or open or close my eyes)? I want to, every now and then, exist for you…shawnamawna (65)in life • 6 years agoMom on CallI had to clear my energy today with a good sage smudge. I have been on call full time for the last two weeks as my eldest transitions from homeschool to public school. He’s doing very, very…shawnamawna (65)in life • 6 years agoWhy I kept talking to the man who sexually assaulted meAs I have been researching an order of protection against the man at my gym who sexually assaulted me , I've had to go back through my message history with him and reestablish the chain of…shawnamawna (65)in life • 6 years agoDealing with vulnerability in my place of powerMy car is a sanctuary. I am parked outside my gym, what was my sanctuary for the last year, but a man returned recently and has joined my regular class several times a week. He’s a man I once had…shawnamawna (65)in photography • 6 years agoSelf- Portraits with My iPhoneEarlier I was at the library with my kids. One of their friends came through the doors and shouted, “Shawna! Why do you look so fancy?” I had to look down at myself to figure out what I was wearing.…shawnamawna (65)in life • 6 years agoAsymmetryKnee to knee grief whispered asymmetrical anger. No symmetry in grief even with the mirror clean and nose to nose reflecting back those sad, sad eyes. I am sorry I am not what I intended to be.…shawnamawna (65)in life • 6 years agoComing OutI'm sure what you meant by this might be a phase, you are always going full tilt after one idea or another was that you love and accept me the way I am. Perhaps you, like my friend, mused…shawnamawna (65)in life • 6 years agoI'm not broken, I'm gayI wish I was sitting in my girlfriend's house. Her arms are warm and I feel I fit there. Even though we haven't moved past the hugging stage or the exchange of small kisses. I wish I was sitting…
