BlogHide Resteemsstillonthequest (35)in benzodiazepines • 7 years ago9. I'm in Thailand at rehab and they have never detoxed anyone off the levels of benzos I'm on.Gonna be a fun ride. Have a nice day :)stillonthequest (35)in introduceyourself • 7 years ago7. 11 things about meI'm 32 from London. I have treatment resistant bipolar. I have tried about 30 medications over the past 5 years. I am highly addicted to benzodiazepines through being prescribed them by a…stillonthequest (35)in depression • 7 years ago6. . Do you want to be severely depressed to the point where you're offered electric shock therapy? Then blame others for how you feel.Over the past 6 months which spiralled me into depression and researching obsessively whether my diagnosis of treatment resistant bipolar will meet the criteria for assisted euthanasia in Belgium I…stillonthequest (35)in happiness • 7 years agoWhat was I worrying about?I haven't been able tol write until today with all the organising from the move and settling into where I'll be for a while. In 5 days I've made some wonderful friends for life and met some…stillonthequest (35)in angry • 7 years ago4. I couldn't handle the crisis houseThey monitored my every moment. I wasn't allowed out for the weekend. I couldn't stand the restrictiveness. It reminded me the other day of when I went to the doctor's with a cold and she said I had…stillonthequest (35)in loneliness • 7 years ago3. So I know what I'm doing for a month nowI couldn't handle normal life. Never been a huge fan of it. The loneliness kicked in and then the depression came with it. So I've been admitted to a women's crisis house until I go away. Am I in…stillonthequest (35)in loneliness • 7 years ago2. What shall I do for a month?I've been with my partner the whole of the Christmas holidays. It's been a great distraction from the depression and fear of leaving. But I can't go into February and everyone I know is now…stillonthequest (35)in bipolar • 7 years ago1. So it's actually happening there's a date nowToday it got confirmed. I'm going to Thailand for rehab. Too much has gone on in my life recently and London has cracked me. In my mind it's not real and won't feel real until I get there. Part of…