BlogHide Resteemssuburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 6 years agoSuburban Addict - Invested In YouFor those who were there and tried from the start Keeping me guided through times in the dark You still hold me up but my heart it weighs more Than things first began and the pain you endured I…suburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 6 years agoSuburban Addict - Last Year"Let your growth be a gift to them. Let them see it, let them feel it." The last year of addiction is certainly a blur when looked back upon. Often it is filled with a number of failures, some…suburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 6 years agoSuburban Addict - Last PennyMy mind is numb I feel no pain, I feel no joy Oblige me now please, real mccoy One last try I swear, I don’t lie Please hold me over, til’ I’m ready to die In time I’ll be better, I promise…suburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 6 years agoSuburban Addict - The LastThere are three elements to addiction; the life you lead, the pain it causes, and the drug to hold you up. In the early stages of addiction you are neither aware of the pain, nor the lifestyle…suburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 6 years agoSuburban Addict - Close CallIt’s unreal to think back on just how many trips I made to buy drugs, and even more so how few close calls there were. Think about the situation you are openly putting yourself in. Going into…suburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 6 years agoSuburban Addict - RelapseSo you’ve decided to stop, and are putting your best foot forward. You put in the effort, and formulate a game plan for success. The timeline is set, schedule organized, exercise and diet plan…suburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 6 years agoSuburban Addict - Six In OneI see the light and am the dark from which it escapes Exposed patterns of limitation Break way to lines of creation I see as I am, for I am not what I see What I see is within, the choice to…suburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 6 years agoSuburban Addict - Recovery"There is no greater, there is no lesser. Only balance." ~ Robert A. Monroe ~ I swear, this is the last time… I swear, THIS is the last time. I swear, this IS the last time. I swear, this is…suburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 6 years agoSuburban Addict - The FirstFirst Time The first try might be one of the sweetest, most love-filled blanketing moments you can experience. At the time nothing comes close to it, nothing ever will. Like one of your first…suburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 6 years agoSuburban Addict - The Chase"I'm holding on, to what I haven't got" ~Chester Bennington Finding a balance, a balance between what you have and don’t have - it’s critical in the survival and turning point to your recovery.…suburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 6 years agoSuburban Addict - A Day in the LifeWake up, contemplate how much I used the night before. Fuck, another blow to my bank account. How am I gonna make up for this one? That's it, today's the day I'm stopping, so go damn fed up.…suburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 6 years agoSuburban Addict - AwarenessI've always been curious whether or not our addictive tendencies existed before addiction. If yes, then to what extent, and were they as strong as they are now? I believe they've always been…suburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 6 years agoSuburban Addict - Digging Your Own GraveWith each relapse, the harder the fall, the steeper the climb…back to a world of uncertainty, and vulnerable to the feelings we've grown so distant from familiar. Over time, life gives back to us…suburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 6 years agoSuburban Addict - Challenges vs. OpportunitiesIt's critical that we're brought up to view challenges as opportunities for growth, rather than obstacles that we must drag ourselves through to completion. Often our natural tendency is to worry…suburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 6 years agoSuburban Addict - The What IF'sWhat if I never went down this path? What if I didn’t spend all that money? What if I damaged my health permanently? What if this will never end? What if I’m fucked for life? You can speculate…suburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 6 years agoSuburban Addict - Support from WithinWhat a challenge it is to find support from within yourself. It’s natural and easy to picture support as this external force. We often think of it as something to “prop” us up until we grow strong…suburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 7 years agoSuburban Addict - Becoming A MasterA common question I get from time to time, is whether or not I've begun to master my addiction. The truth of it is, no, I will absolutely never be the master of anything and even more so my…suburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 7 years agoSuburban Addict - AvoidancePain, it's just something no one ever wants to go through. I can't specifically remember a time during childhood where I felt any overwhelming sense of it, but there was always plenty of anxiety…suburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 7 years agoSuburban Addict - Into The DeepInto the deep, I go again because I can, because I can… Shallow the depths, I dive at first.. No fear, no doubt, no thought of the worst. A curious need, some form of relief.. Nothing there…suburbanaddict (25)in suburbanaddict • 7 years agoSuburban Addict - ValuesVALUES The desire for more, what makes us all tick, what keeps us going. What would life be to know that what you have now is all you’ll ever have? That no matter how hard you work, this will…
