And it was all lies....

Not to long ago i started doing things i wasn't quite familiar with along that journey i found myself going deeper into it. I met someone that needed help so i showed them a way to fix the issues they were experiencing. I was practicing using sigils they say be careful of what you wish for i did everything correctly i just didn't properly ask for the right thing maybe the one i contacted felt i was making a mockerey of them so they in turn gave me what i asked for but it wasn't exactly it. I wouldn't call it dabbling i was going way over my head. And i got the brunt of it after a year of focusing my energy and essences into the sigil within the timeframe i applied my blood sweat and tears along came a stranger an odd one to say the least walked like talked like me it instantly caught my full attention I've never been shy nor have i been smitten by anyone this thru me for a complete loop the moment i saw her i knew she was someone i had to learn more of its funny though cause that's the only thing in life i really regret everything was a lie that came from her mouth love meant more to me than money could ever buy that's my defect I've done plenty in life but this is something i should of passed on nothing like her scorn simply put my blood is cursed from previous ventures knowing what i know now leads me to this point the things in life i really want I'll never have cause there just not for me i want but i shall not have you'd think it's over yet it seems like it's just starting i can't get away from the past cause it remains my present i still love her but i don't truly know what that even means now I'm surrounded by idiocarcy constantly struggling to keep my thoughts in order i don't need it though it's not for me therefore it's no longer needed I'm decided to remove all memory of now in time I'll be fine only in time will i be who i once was