Being an ambivert is a tough job. Sometimes you may feel like you can run out to the world, talk to everyone, enjoy the crowd, involve in every mass activity. Sometimes you want to go to parties, hang out with friends, and just roam around with your group.
But then, there are also those times when you just want to sit there alone in your room, or anywhere else where there is no one, a place which is far away from everyone, a place where there is absolute silence, utter solitude. A place that is limited to only you. Where there is no trace of any other being, just you and your inner self. At that moment you just want to be with yourself, talking with your inner self, lost in your own deep thoughts and feelings. All the random things come to your mind. You work on your thoughts your habits your desires. All the rational and irrational aspects of you turn up at that moment. You revisit all the areas inside you and also visit those places which were unexplored before. Sometimes you laugh, sometimes you cry. But also, sometimes you feel nothing you think nothing, and just enjoy your solitude.
And, the complication takes a new turn at that moment when you want to go out but at the same time, you want to stay within yourself as well.
As per my experiences and observations till now, I really sometimes get caught up badly in these kinds of situations, when I so want to be alone, at myself, but I cannot because of whatsoever reasons. And believe me, I never find anything more frustrating than this.
Everything in this world has two sides: good and bad. Likewise, being an ambivert also has both aspects: positive and negative. It is very important to give yourself some alone time for self-realization, self-analysis, and a distance from other people. An ambivert always gets a chance to know himself better and deeper, to think on his own, free of other people’s opinions. At the same time, he also involves himself with people so that he has a common perspective of things as well.
However, an ambivert cannot escape from those times when his one characteristic becomes more powerful than others and start dominating it. Sometimes you long to be alone, but neither you are able to handle the loneliness nor you can go out of it. You get caught in a dilemma that only grows, giving no hopes of a solution. And the same things happen when you are in a mood to explore the outer world but cannot.
So, being an ambivert, you live in two different tangents (I personally live in extremes).
It is difficult for an ambivert to understand himself and enlighten others. But having a life that is full of both outer and inner experiences is something really amazing.
