Just admitting the truth, as it is. I am making this Sigil... that's the only thing I can do that I am aware of at the moment.
When faced with a confrontation, I either get mad or freeze. That's "fight or flight". I am an artist - so super right-brained. I have trauma-based mind control in my history from which I have recovered a LOT - but not to the extent that I can actually stand up against tyranny in the moment and stay collected and calm, with full access to my mind and heart. I get triggered, I am a little girl - either the bully... but most often, the bullied.
I talk a great game to other people about other people's cowardice. I almost feel like that's what I do on facebook - talk about other people's cowardice to make myself feel like I have courage - but I don't actually have it.
It became clear today. My best friend was going to stand up to a group of people that have been infiltrating our clan and violating our principles. He was going to speak up in front of everyone, the way they speak up in front of everyone. But the big guru guy of the group told him it was not a good idea and he believed him. He doesn't realize he is a coward unless he can use his fists, either, but that's for him to see.
Then it falls on my shoulders and I am like, NO WAY... I cannot do it.
It's group-thing. It's mind-control. And I am under it.
Good one! I made a Steem goes to 8 dollars sigil, I should add it to all my posts
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wow thanks! I am going to use this sigil in my posts too!!! Great idea!!!!
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yeah, i can relate, haha... it's super hard to stand up for yourself at times ! i hope the sigil works for you <3 (and for everyone who comes across this post)
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thank you @veryspider - I was terrified to even post this because I am sure most people can stand up... at least people talk like they can... but funny thing was - I went to the place, I asked the Creator for help, and I was able to stand up in a way that people could hear. I was not direct, but it's a start. I am going to redraw this sigil in part 2 into a an actual picture - and then hang it behind my computer where I can see it everyday... I can see it working out...
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Self analysis is the first step to healing yourself!
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thanks! I know this - but I just felt like admitting it.
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