I have been a nervous wreck for the past week.
I am a big fan of Undertale. I am currently playing it on my YouTube Channel. Also, a new game called Deltarune came out, literally out of nowhere on Halloween. After learning both Deltarune and Undertale was in the works, I decided to make the game's creator a thank you render for going through all the trouble for us.
Here is the render
I posted about my nervousness in groups and on my socials and people told me to go for it. I sent it via e-mail.
I sent it last Tuesday. I don't know how the guy responds to fan art if he even responds to it. I am trying to be patient.
Because people are busy and can't watch their emails and messages 24/7, especially if the guy gets a lot of e-mails, of course, it will take a while for him to get to your message. But I am just so anxious about whether or not he will like it. Not sure if he was put off with all the NSFW art people make. I don't do that. I don't like making NSFW art. I will have the model in a bikini, but that's it.
But yeah. My anxiety is causing me to overthink. I can't control it. The guy probably has a lot of messages to catch up to, especially if he traveled for Thanksgiving to be with family. Game creators are people just like us and deserve to spend holidays with family. This most likely is the reality but my anxiety is telling me if he didn't like it or if I have the wrong e-mail ( even though most e-mail sites will send you an error message if you try to send an e-mail to an account not registered)
Maybe I am overthinking, worried for nothing.....
Oh my, you got some big issues to tackle. That anxiety is going to ruin your life if you let it control your freedom and limit your talents. Sticking your self-worth on a the reaction of a stranger is a bit risky when there are so many variables involved (Does he read fan mail? Does his email get filter? Is he a nice person? Does he have any social skills? Does he have time for reading your email? Maybe he got sick? Maybe he had a death in the family? etc.). You can't control any of the possibilities that may happen. You can only control how you let your emotions play out, or you can choose to let your emotions play you.
Last year I was making some posts here on steemit on this subject. I was using the book "The Artist's Way" as a study guide, posed to me by another steemian. It really helped me to tackle some of the silly excuses I had been always making, to prevent myself from doing the kind of art I always told myself I would work on some day, but never had the guts to actually do. How am I ever going to get good if I don't actually practice? How hard can it be if I only tried years ago? Why is my inspiration for good art always gone? This book answered a lot of those questions, and helped me to tap into hidden energy and confidence to feed more artistic drives I never knew I had.
If you can find it at the library, you might want to check it out, and try it for a few months, and share your results.
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That's what I said ( kinda) but anxiety doesn't give a shit if he gets a lot of messages. People on Reddit contacted him about stuff, it is unclear how long they waited before he answered. Yeah, he seems nice. Someone was worried about their friend and asked for his help and he e-mailed the friend in question.
Yeah, anything could have popped up, I even said in the post it was Tanksgiving week when I sent it and people usually travel for Thanksgiving. People don't understand anxiety, it doesn't care what could have occured.
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