Goblins in my head - part two, day of the complete silence

Hi guys:)

Yesterday I said that we're going to spend all day in silence in our house. Kind of cleaning heads from noise procedure and hearing inner voice. Now we're in the middle of the experiment,  and what can I say so far:

• 1. Drawing in silence is slower process. For me it appeared so. I used to have some kind f rhythm music gives me, and without it I find myself lost in time.
• 2. No talking is awesome. This I knew before, but at the moment I really enjoy keeping my mouth closed. Of course I can't hold myself from "Awwwww" when see my dog sleeping and seeing  dreams, running somewhere with her little paws in sleep, but in all the other situations being silent is totally fantastic.
• 3. No informational noise makes me feel better. Again - I knew it before, but now, making it purposely, I feel that may be even my no TV, radio and news life in not enough. I still get too much information I actually don't need.
• 4. Reading rullez. And again I knew it before, it's nearly the only way of getting information I find not repulsive. 
• 5. But anyway, life without music sucks, really sucks:) I need it for most activities, such as drawing, work out or cleaning up mess in my house. (It's funny that when we tried jogging with my mom when I was a teen she was really angry about the fact that I want to listen to music in my headphones while doing it. She was sure that it diverts. Well, may be for her it was really so, but for me... Ha-ha, no:)

But the main thing happening - I'm facing goblins in my head again. Some of them sweet and really welcome to be there, but some creepy and these who have to go. I yet haven't found the way to make them, but I'm on my way. 

This Wednesday I will visit my therapist again. I feel both - exited about it, and a bit confused cause I already worry that it's going to be a fail again. Sometimes it seems to me that I need a therapist with the same "positive" goblins as I have, and it will be a great match to seek for the perfect solution to get rid of the evil ones. But still - after my visit yesterday I feel pretty calm. Trick is that I know that it's only a face balance.

I wonder how it'll go in the evening, in this complete silence. We approved our supper menu in advance, yesterday (but still it's a bit funny just to come to your husband and put a plate in front of him with no words at all), but evening usually is the part of the day when we at least say a few words to each other:)

I wish you all the best and will be happy if you'll support me with vote:)

Love, Inber