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in b •  7 years ago 

20 yrs
Female
It is my first confession...my story goes like dis.....
I met a guy when I was class 9 where as he is 10.our relations has gone 6 months then he went ktm for further study .after dat he give me brkup but I still loved him , I used to cry every time. my friend said to forget but I can't.
after 7/8 month he returned in my life.I cant reject him becoz I m from divorced family. I m apart from father from 4year. after 5 yrs I used to live with my mom's sister.they dnt hav daughter .they love me too even though it is nt equal to own father nd mother.I always feel lonely nd miss my family. I hav no frend whom I trust .I feel dis lonely is completed when he was in last 6 month. he always support nd encourage me to study.
after mt slc we met and talk about our family. when he know about my family he becomes more closed with me.he said if u want to marry with me u hav to be recognise urself then my family will accept you.after 2years I passed +2.our reln has go on instead of his attitude argued.
he try for hotel management and I tried fr nursing.I got admission bt he can't. then he tried fr abroad study also bt he many time he failed. he becomes frustrated. then he becomes totally different .he fights with me. bit me , used rough word.hurt hunthyo bt ma tada huna sochna ni sakdina thi .becoz I luv him.
now he cleared BBs bt my study is going on stilll he try for going abroad. after joing nursing I m bg .I can't give him time. he said I m change after joining nursing. my behavior is changed.he hurt me lot .ya I m change because of his behavior. problems is I cant move on.I m so crazy.
on dashain he fights with me because I didn't call him I don't care him.ma selfish re.usle dailai vanexa .daile sabai family member lai vannu vayexa.1st yer padda ta vau dinna. nurse nai bane paxi talai gandina.I m nt his level.he crossed his limit.he is nt happy wth me because of behave .if I suicide he will happy.in dis conditions .I cant live without him.our reln has crossed 5yr.I remember he plays with my feeling .I want to hate him.bt I can forget him. I joined nursing fr his family acceptance.bt now. ...?
I cant move on, I truly luv him, I cant trust other except him and my family. I dnt no dis is luv or attraction.I m confused. wt can I do in dis situation

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