Any real battle starts in your own head first, if you are afraid to find your own inner voice then you are really like running into battle without a plan or a general. Things are not special if you have no inner guidance. Heaven is always speaking, but we are not always listening. We have a voice trying to help us live the highest possible life at any given time. But instead, we avoid it, run around it, pretend it doesn’t exist.
At this point, we are fighting in a battle without any clear terms for victory. It’s just like you traveled to Europe to find some ancient war happening again, and decided to blindly throw yourself into the middle with a reckless fervor. Who can say whose side you would end up on, or why you were in fact fighting. Would heaven sent you into any situation spiritually blind? Of course not, that’s why trials are necessary so that you can understand evil and how to deal with its processes.
Did some evil country harm you directly? or are you just believing what everyone around you says about “those people”? Most people believe what they hear, not what their conscience says; and they suffer as a result.