Beauty is in the eye of the beholder

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to other females.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish that I looked a certain way based on what I consider attractive in other females.

I forgive myself that I haven’t paid enough attention to myself and embracing what I have been given as a human body by my parents, and that within this spend so much time pouring over pictures and images of other females in a form of picking out the best bits and coveting them for myself.

I forgive myself that I have lived a memory of being a child and playing dress up games with friends of being grown up and lady like, and within this allow the memory to become me, where I have no clear definition of myself for real. I see realise and understand how I have been living in a bit of an escapist fantasy in my mind of how I believe I look, and not then wanting to see myself for real in pictures and videos, because I have created a belief that I look a certain way and it’s not the way I have programmed myself to see myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live the words beauty and ugly and within this create for myself a comparison of what I consider beautiful to what I believe to be ugly in me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put so much emphasis on how I look to others based on a memory of being told I was ugly as a child and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as ugly and within this try hard to be something different as a picture in my mind that is acceptable, as I have defined it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise and understand that this definition of myself has underpinned who I have been in my relationships with others.

I commit myself to embrace who I am and what I have as my body and face and within this I commit myself to except myself as enough. I commit myself to stop abusing myself through my mind in thoughts about myself.

I commit myself to live the words acceptance and enough and I commit myself to redefine the word beauty and to remind myself of the words that ‘beauty is in the eye of the beholder’ and that within this I will never appeal to everyone, I cannot be everything to everyone and I forgive myself that I haven’t seen/realised and understood that I am only able to be enough for myself.