this finex thing did crit me really hard

so i guess im at that point where you just don't know what to do. i'm tired of this shit, everytime i accomplish something, life just flip the table on my face, i didn't have much as probably many other people on finex, but for me it was, and i was just to withdraw almost everything this week i even opened a new fiat account these days where i could've withdrew easily... everything i had on finex was in usd because i sold at 780

luckily i sent something to kraken and poloniex from there but not enough at all ... and all the profit i did in this movements were on finex still. i'm not good at anything else in life other than trading it seems, i studied and did many jobs and nothing worked well as this, and anyway i'm a very closed person, i don't interact much with others. and it's not like i did a couple of good trades. now all this nights without sleep served nothing and months staying under pressure... i'm so tired but i can't let my emotions overwhelm me because i must be strong for my girlfriend, at least she is good at something and i want to support her, she always does it for me. but i don't know if i want to stand up again.

i wanted to give much of my earnings to my parents because they needed it more than me, i wanted to give them some of earnings and i was so happy i could do something for them... now not even this i'm not angry at the hacker, he did his job, but i am to bitfinex and i can't do anything against them, no one will pay for this shit but us, and we were just doing our jobs while other weren't. but mostly i'm angry with myself
i feel miserable but if anyone wants to give something 3NfUsp34PykYJP6c16itcJniRVpXXk3kdn i don't know what to say... begging is ridicoulus but im at that point

i should look for psychological help maybe, sure, but i can't bother with it either. fuck this life