Link to Part 1: https://steemit.com/life/@alonelyauthor/spiritual-awakening-on-monster-energy-part-1
Part 2: https://steemit.com/blog/@alonelyauthor/spiritual-awakening-on-monster-energy-part-2
That was the gulp that changed my life forever.
There was no going back to the small space of reality that I used to occupy. I knew this as I felt the cold liquid trickle down my esophagus and into my stomach.
I was shot through a second tunnel. But this one was made out of fractals. Fractals and beautiful colors and I was filled with love—that’s the only way I can put it, really.
I was filled with some type of emotion that was sustaining, that filled me to the brim. And in that moment I was at ease with everything in the world. I accepted everything in my life. I needed nothing.
I was empty. And I was full.
But that was just the first step. I had one leg behind the curtain.
As I began to lose all feeling in my body, I set the drink down on the coffee table in front of me.
But there was no body. There was no body. There was only…
In fact, there is no body. There’s only…. Awareness. There’s only a sense of consciousness that manifests itself in many ways, across eons of space. One of the myriad ways is through a human body.
The human body is a conduit—not for a soul—but for awareness. The human body: the brains, the neurons etc. are all tools for awareness. Awareness is the thing that lasts. That is eternal. That is invisible. While the tools are material that disintegrates as the space within them and around them changes. We are not special as humans. How many other aware objects have existed throughout space?
But in that moment, I had no body. In that moment, because I took that fourth gulp of monster energy, I existed as awareness without the tools of awareness. In this way, I was the thing itself, and not the cause.
I was the object without a cause.
Pure existence.
In a state of perfect existence dependent upon nothing.
And then it all changed. I was transported. I was shot to a place of green fields of tall grass. The sky was shimmering, as if made up of glitter or sequins.
Then I realized they were stars, and then I realized that I was on a planet perhaps, some place in the universe, from which all stars in the universe were visible. There was no light pollution—but not just that. Distance was not a factor. Anything in the universe from this place could be seen.
So I saw everything.
I saw. Everything.
My awareness felt the expanses of what I saw, and at the same time, my awareness felt smaller than ever before. Smaller in scope, in breadth, in ability; I realized, because of the particular tools of my awareness, there is so much I cannot see and so much I would never see, without Monster Energy.
Suddenly, I became alert to the fact that at some point, this trip, or whatever journey I was currently on, would come to an end. And for all its beauty, for the lights in the sky that filled me up, that lit up my awareness, that connected me to everything that mattered most to all existence…. I began to cry.
I opened my eyes, still crying.
Stay tuned for the final part!