This is a heartfelt and amazing post. You can see how much you truly loved your mother and the bond that you had with her. I am glad that you were in a position that allowed to spend the final month with her. I can only imagine the stress and the exhaustion you must have felt. You speech you wrote for your mother's funeral was a fitting tribute, you did a wonderful job on it. I wish you the best in your emotional recovery. My own mother has been through 2 bouts of cancer so far, breast cancer and lung cancer, and while she is doing well at this moment, I cherish every one, not know what the future will bring.