I Thank God For This Day

Who knew that I will reach this age of my life, I am just old enough to be embarrassed to say how old I am now. Things are different, I am old and yet trapped into a seemingly 17 year old boy with a two hundred year old bones.

I still want to live long and also want to die already in a 50:50 ratio. It is just cryptos makes me feel excited about my future because obviously I own some cryptos and earns them too and they give me hope that I can maybe achieve something that is far from happening but since crypto prices are just crazy I guess as crazy as they are then I am just fit for cryptos because my life is as crazy as it gets.

I really wanted to cry because I had missed a lot of things in my life, I am not able to raise my own family even though I also think that sometimes I am better off without one. I never finished schooling because my cognitive abilities are already being affected by my brewing Kidney catastrophe. I also never had the chance to learn sport which I bet I would have enjoyed too much because I am a cheery person but because I just waited and waited for my body to recover it didn't happen because my health just didn't even attempted to see an uphill movement but all vertical down a cliff.

My life just halted after I stopped going to college because I am not expecting it. My plan really is to finish college and go to work and all that normal people does. The funny thing is that I may not have been discovered cryptos if these things didn't happened in my life, a sort of butterfly effect for my life.

But of course it would be ten million times better if I had recovered from my illness. But that didn't happen so now I am here trying to pick up a million pieces of my shattered life. But for as long as I am seeing that glimmer of hope I will just continue to strive to go forward and try to improve my life for the best life I could possibly achieve even maybe if the end of it is a failure.