Today I am just reminiscing my painful body pains compared to my condition right now because it was so terrible during those years and I really do not want to go back to those years again.
That is why even though I will never in most instances of my life now enjoy eating my food, it is better that way than to suffer lingering pains coupled with facial deformation.
Being in Cinacalcet therapy made a big difference in my life. Now I am no longer fearing that I will see my facial bone to grow bigger and that fear is now dissolved as evidenced by my receding facial and gum bones.
Then also as with my back and beck bones getting an improvement is really what I am also thanking God for because getting saved from lingering pain is something that I wasn't expecting but after I did took that Parathyroid medicine my condition had improved slowly.
But I have to trade the shedding of my pain issues and receding facial bone enlargement with appetiteloss because that is the side-effect that I have to suffer in a trade-off with the alleviation of my complaints with my bone issues.
It is disheartening because I only have a short years of my life to live and yet I can never possibly enjoy it with a normal body function of a seemingly negligible issue like to enjoy food.
But I have to do that trade-off because having to suffer severe pains is like a hell and I really don't want to go back to it hence my religious taking of a drug which is also a source of a miserable situation plus the fact that Cinacalcet is not that cheap of a medicine but I guess that it is sure worthwhile to be in under its therapy and if one day one of my organs would fail because of it, then that is just it for me, I am done for.
It is understandable since that drug has the most stinkiest smell which is why a gasoline's scent is sweeter than its odor. But I just hope that I can graduate from its use before it makes another form of illness in my body.
