i think i just want to write in abandonment
i hate the people that are attracted to comment
it is always cunts who don't understand
and so as an artist i feel forced to make them understand
but the truth is that some people
most people
just won't understand
hell
i have a few people inside me
who don't understand
sub
people
who
right now
i don't understand
and so i guess that is toltec wisdom
or should i say
what i feel after slow breathing
if i hate you i hate a part of me
a part of me does not feel
it is as simple as that
though
you see
i have encountered a lot of people
and there are some personalties
very few in fact
that have clicked
with some of my personalities
and i don't know
but recently
in fact
mostly
in my dreams
it is of very few women
who have kissed me in a certain way
at a certain time
very naturally
and i've never seen them again
but they always play in my mind
and there is one in particular
her
the energy of her sub personality
when romantically inclined
matched perfectly
for my
very
deep
secretive
dominant mind
and i don't know how to reason with that
except dream and believe it can be achieved again
in some way with another
or perhaps even better
but i know it will never be the same
and so i am at a loss of how to celebrate what happened
without
crying for what isn't here now
although i do take some solace in the fact that
nothing good lasts forever
i am also thinking of
a beautiful submissive woman
to marry
because they don't come along too often
and i'm tired of chasing
these narcissistic bitches
that make my heart beat fast
and give me nothing
but a face to aim at
on my punch bag
of revenge
knowing that
the truest form
of my completion
is to dance
with the one
accepting
and loving
some
may not get it
mainly crazy feminist bitches
nazis
but quite honestly
the more submissive a female is
the more i give them everything
and there is something beautiful
that no one will ever understand
apart from her
and that is why i love her
not because she was hotter
or made my heart beat faster
but because
when i was sitting doing nothing
she would automatically hug and kiss
and when i initiated anything
it was the easiest thing in the world
it was the most rewarding experience
that required no effort
i could do anything i wanted
i was a man on my own
and so i chose
her divine feminine
energia