Some days are tough...

Today was a shit day...
Hate to start a blog like that, but sometimes the truth hurts..
We're on vacation, visiting our land we purchased in Portugal. Seemingly everything should be wonderful.. I have a loving family, a beautiful piece of land, and no responsibilities or duties. So whats wrong? Why do I feel like shit?
Well, the truth is I'm not sure..
Today was just one of those days. I didn't get much sleep last night. Woke up at 6 this morning to cuddle little Tao (our 3 month old baby) who did have a good night sleep, and he was a happy little camper full of energy and ready to play. To be honest, he actually made me feel better. After a couple of hours sitting with him, he was ready for a nap, so I put him in the sling while I made myself some breakfast, and by the time I was done eating he was fast asleep.
So.. I started my day. But somehow... I don't know.. You ever had one of those days that just... Didn't feel right? Like no matter what I do, nothing felt like it was going well. I couldn't put my finger on exactly what it was. Everything seemed to piss me off, meaning it wasn't anything specific..
And when Tslil woke up, we kinda had the same feeling.. Its just one of those days..
Its now 21 o'clock, and the whole day seems to have been a waste.. Didn't really do anything cause I didn't really feel like doing anything..
I guess it was a real contrast with yesterday, which was a really good day. Played some music, visited our land (which is always lovely) just did some fun things and felt good.
Today I didn't.
So, I'm writing about it here. Not that I think it will make me feel better (though secretly I'm hoping it might) but just because I wanted to share.. And just because I'm having a shit day, doesn't mean I won't share it. I hate when social media becomes a facade of some perfect life where everything is always like a fucking glee club... Some days are good. Some days are shit.
Today was just one of those days..
I guess I hope maybe my feeling like this and posting it could help you, if you are having a shit day too. Misery loves company? In Hebrew there's a saying, if suffering is shared by many, it's half a consolation (sounds a bit better in Hebrew..)
I guess that's true in a way. Its like when people say mercury is in retrograde, it's kinda like legitimising my feeling. "oh, its not my fault, it's that mischievous Mercury again.." I don't really care how true it is (what is truth anyway if not subjectivity), if it makes me feel better, even a little bit, then I'll take it.
Well, it's the end of my shit day. I hope tomorrow will be better in comparison since I would hate to think it will be the same. But I guess in times like this it's best to remember that old Taoist tale about the farmer. You don't know it? Oh, well check out Charlie Wilson war. Good movie and he tells it there.
If you can't be bothered I'll tell it you now.

There was a farmer whose horse ran away. That evening the neighbors gathered to commiserate with him since this was such bad luck. He said, “we'll see.”
The next day the horse returned, but brought with it six wild horses, and the neighbors came exclaiming at his good fortune. He said, “we'll see.”
The following day, his son tried to saddle and ride one of the wild horses, he was thrown off, and broke his leg.

Again the neighbors came to offer their sympathy for the misfortune. He said, “we'll see.”
The day after that, conscription officers came to the village to seize young men for the army, but because of the broken leg the farmer’s son was rejected. When the neighbors came in to say how fortunately everything had turned out, he said,
“we'll see.”

Story Source: https://theunboundedspirit.com/short-story-the-taoist-farmer/

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