Um... no.

There is no honor to be found within that so-called game.

If you no longer value your life then that is unfortunate as such would suggest that you have lost your way and are unclear about your purpose in life.

If you feel the 'need' for purpose (and its fine not to have an evident higher purpose - a flower is joyful just being) then seek and you shall find.

If you feel that you have been unable to find then reply in no sooner than 48 hours - and I shall seek to assist you here.

Wishing you well.