The first thing I wanna do is say what's up to @tpkidkai , you rock! LOL.  I don't have a thought of mentioning your name here bitch, because I don't want you to get famous and I'm keeping your name out of my mouth bitch. So I would call you by your nick name MONSTER.

Dear Monster,

                                            First of all you suck! Year 2006 when I met this girl, let's just call her MONSTER. I believe we first met at my cousin's debut party in Santa Maria, Bulacan. My cousin introduced me to her and telling me that this girl was her classmate and her room mate so yeah that was the first time I met her. We shook hands hey I'm DeShawn what's yours? Hello DeShawn, I'm Monster. Oh god! She was so fine and super sexy with average tits, not so big though. 8 o'clock P.M the same day, I asked her if we could dance and she said yes. While we were dancing I asked her how young was she? She said I'm 19. Jesus christ! You're 19? but you look so 15 damn! She laughed and asked me the same question how old are you DeShawn? I'm 21. She said cool. She asked me another question what do you do? I said I work as a laborer and do part time as a baller. "Wow! So what's your position DeShawn and how tall are you? I answered her I'm 6'1 and I'm the center 5th spot girl. I asked her the same question '"what do you do?" She said I'm at school, I'd like to watch sports during my free time or spare time. "What are you going to school for?"  I'm a BS Business Administration Major in Internal Auditing at Far Eastern University Manila.  Aw that's what's up! I was from the University of the East Manila. Our school is very close it's like 5 meters away hehe. Then after that we stopped dancing because we were tired LOL. (how I wish there was a never ending song). We exchanged cellphone numbers and so on and on.

Our first date:

                                  After so many exchanging of text messages here we are going on our first date at SM North EDSA. We rode a bus from Santa Maria to North Avenue. It was like 30 minutes of travelling and now boom. We watched a movie and after watching movie, we went to an Italian Restaurant, while we were eating our first lunch together, I was so shy and I was looking at her face the whole time (I'm pretty sure she noticed it). I was so shy to confess though. We were just talking about sports all the time. I felt like I wasted her time but she was happy and finally she was with someone who is into sports. After eating lunch with her, we walk along together, by the time we sat together on a bench there was a clown asking if we were a couple, we looked at each other eyes and smiled. We answered the clown "No we aren't". Then the clown said aw that's too bad y'all are too sweet for a friend. I said aw I wish I was her man. She laughed again. The clown went nuts and asked us lots of question like blah blah blah. Then the clown said good bye us and we were it was nice talking to you sir. Monster asked me a question "were you serious about that earlier I wish I was her man"? I told her yeah I was dead serious that time breaks the silence. I said that from the bottom of my fucking heart! I love you Monster and there are no words that could express how I feel. I never kept a secret I always stayed real. She was like "really? I love you too". I was so happy that day. I felt that I'm gonna die from happiness. I never thought that she'd say I love you too. We became lovers, we were sweet as hell. I thought that we were meant to be and blah blah. (Sorry I cut the love story short because it wasn't the main theme and it hurts when I remember this thingy, now I find it so gross.)

Break up:

                                 After 8 months of lovey dovey here we go! We had our first fight and she was so jealous to my childhood friend. I don't know why the fuck she get jealous to someone who I rarely seen and talk. I was so pissed! I was so transparent, she knows all my password in Friendster,Myspace and to my emails. Even my cellphone. I had nothing to hide in the first place. She told me that my childhood friend was a flirt and I was like really? How the fuck is she a flirt? We rarely talk? and I aint even know her digits. She was like I felt it and just that. I said bitch how the fuck did you feel it? Were you a Cardiologist? how could you be so sure about your girl instincts. Bitch the last time I met her was a long time ago and I never felt what I felt for you. How could you be so mean. She confronted my childhood friend and blah blah blah. I was so ashamed of her, if I had the balls to tell her I'd tell her get the fuck away from me and get the fuck out of my life. Apologize to her. She was like nah why would I do that? She's a slut. Monster you know nothing about her so please don't judge her. She said I fucking hate the both of you. I'm done. Walks the door without saying goodbye. She blocked me on all social media (Friendster and Myspace). Hell this aint supposed to be happening to me. I love her to death and I gave her world but she just wanted arguing.  I thought she was my forever. I don't deserve this at all, it's just she was just too fly for me I guess. I let her control me, I was like a robot whatever she said I'd do it. Damn it!

                               1 month later..... A friend of mine told me that Monster is with someone meaning Monster got a new boyfriend. I was so sad that time and depressed. She was just pretending that she was jealous of my childhood friend but the truth is she just want to have a break up. It hurts so much I felt that I'm gonna pee on my pants about that news that I heard. My friend told to believe him and he'd do anything to prove that he wasn't just spreading rumors about Monster. Okay do you have a proof? He said soon I will.

As the day goes by, my friend went here in our crib and nicely ask me if we could drink outside I said yeah bring it on. We bought beers and then as the time goes by, man I have a bad news for you, remember when you were asking for a proof  about monster? Now I got it. Shows his cellphone to me. I was like woah! What the fuck! Is that the guy that she is with now? Damn! I would break all his bones. Nah bruh beating up a bitch don't make you shit but then again some people think it makes a man. He was right, I just keep on drinking that time but my heart was full of anger. I asked my friend how long they are dating. 2 months. Imagine the time you were with her? she's fake as fuck, she don't deserve you. Yeah fuck her I don't need her in my life and I don't need her . may god be with her. Cries out loud! Don't worry my friend everything's gonna be alright. Move the fuck on! At first it hurts, remember aunt May told us that pain is part of happiness. I was like thank you brother you're the man! CHEERS! We were drunk as fuck after drinking and after an hour I told him start that shit. He be like what? where the fuck we're going? Clubbing man.  Okay let's go! Then we went clubbing I almost forgot what had happened. The morning I wake up I used to remember those sweet memories blah blah blah! and the time goes by I finally forgot what had happened. Now after 12 years I'm good still single, I'm afraid to fall in love again however I'm pretty much open for anything everything. So yeah this is it. Thank you for reading my bitchass story lol. 

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This song is for you monster: