I'm just longing, that's it..

Last October you assured me a hope, you give me a smile so I go back to my world. You are so warm to my heart when my heart is rained with rain. I who have not loved you completely but now my love is whole milkmu, but why do you haunt my heart again with disappointment.

There used to be you always news and even you never stop for my lips smile, you who always call me when I miss, you who always say good night before I fall asleep. You always say yes to me.
But now the change is starting to come in mid-date, I do not understand with you.

You look ordinary when my heart wonders, I do not know this sudden change happened to you or indeed all men like this, did not you first assure me that all men are not the same and you alone want prove it, but why are you even reassuring me that all men are just playing the feelings of women alone.

When my heart could no longer see the change, I asked him over the phone.
"Honey why?" I asked slowly.
"Why what?" He replied casually.
"Honey really changed? What's wrong? "I asked again.
"Nothing," he replied nonchalantly.
I was silent with the answer.
The days of the question I always ask and the answers are always like that. "It is okay,".
I do not know what else to say, I've loved him too much, but my heart is too fragile to tell him.

The days were passed, Saturday afternoon I asked him.
"Honey tonight?" I asked him.
"Can not, not daddy?". He replied coolly again.
"Why honey?" I asked again with a disappointed heart.
"No trains, broken brother's train". The answer.
"Oh ... yes dear, it's okay," I replied again.

The time was already close to 1 month we dating, but he had no news all day. I thought he wanted to surprise us for our anniversary, but in fact he did not want to contact me. I accidentally saw instagram and looked at the photos of people without him telling me a day.
My heart wonders again, and I start to question her.
"Honey why not have news?" I asked him.
"Busy brother's deck," he replied.
"Oh ... yes dear" I replied with a disappointed heart because he is active without informing me all day.
I'm here to start thinking he's more concerned with the world of the body than I am his lover, I'm sad, I'm disappointed, I do not know anymore, my cheeks are full of water. He just needs me instead of wanting me.

Afternoon Saturday came again, I wait for the news again. I hope he will meet me because we have not met 2 weeks. I waited for her until I fell asleep. I woke up in the morning and saw my phone turns out he was not there to call me. I'm sad and I'm crying again.
Maybe she was tired, or she no longer wanted to see me. And I just want to whisper to him I miss, that's all. But yes ... he may be busy and can not meet me for now.

To you my beloved ... I have a lot to tell you. Especially I want to celebrate longing with you. If you do not want to see me any more, why not, do not worry about me always praying for you.