Uncertainty

I, personally, had never liked the feeling of uncertainty. Unknown situations, unpredictable futures or uncertain lurking variables – I am afraid of uncertainty. It puts you into, literally, hell.

I accept failure, as much as it gets. What I can’t accept is hanging on the edge of failure for days, weeks, months, even years.

Uncertainty, it draws all my attention to the possible results and stops me from doing anything else. I could not get any of my serious business done under uncertainty. It tortures me, and I call it anxiety.

More specifically, anxiety attack.

All the worst possible endings come up to my mind and leave me in complete grief. I would have my mind occupied with doubts. I wouldn’t know what is going on and I don’t like not knowing.

Break.

I probably need to get some sleep.

2:31 AM