The secret to immortality (20-minute freewrite)

Who would want to die? Dunno. Depressive people. And others. There's a list of people who want to die. What's the point of living anyway? Why live, why die, why anything, there is no absolute, but I enjoy living, so I decide to live more.

In fact, there was a point in my life where I thought: if I can only confirm that I exist and that I am able to enjoy, it is my moral imperative to find a way to lengthen my life in order to enjoy for as long as possible. But then I came to the simple realisation that if I enjoy a lot right now and die tomorrow, things would be just as worth it as enjoying for 50 years and dying old. And in fact, I thought that maybe if I enjoy a lot throughout the years and I die old but miserable, that would be less worth it than dying younger.

That made me think of how some musicians in the 80s and 90s were saying that it's better to live a short but intense life than a long but lame life.

But anyway, during that time when I thought that it was my moral imperative to find a way to lengthen my life as much as possible, I started researching things about that. I even got to the point where I googled "ways to be immortal" and read through all the mythological elements and technological advancements that promise to lengthen our lives, but it turns out that even though I thought this was a main focus in humans, it is not really that well-researched a topic. In fact, I found that there was a lot of contradicting information and stuff that people criticised for being false or misleading.

I found Peaches of Immortality, eternal life in Christianity, and I even traced back a few legends. Who knows, maybe I could find something that still existed. I wouldn't necessarily believe it, but it would be fun nonetheless to find it. To be honest, the only thing I found was religion. I remember that one day I was taking the subway and there was a man, bible in hand, yelling stuff like "Mansions of Gold wait for you if you believe in Lord Jesus Christ!". He talked a lot about the riches that we could have in heaven for being a good believer here.

I almost saw him as being some kind of agent from the devil haha. Why would the super humble carpenter give people mansions made of gold? Dunno. Strange beliefs. But anyway, I realised that maybe wanting to live a long life and wanting gold are the same urge, the same primal instinct that makes us want things that promise to give us a long and comfortable life, fulfilment and all. I realised that maybe this is not the best outcome.

Yeah, sure, I would like to live for millions of years and just fly in space in a marshmallow suit, find the secrets of the universe, whatever. But who's to say that this is a better outcome than getting super high and then offing myself before the high comes off? I'd have died being happy, and I'd have enjoyed most of my life. Not that I want that outcome, I'm greedy and want a long life, but what's wrong with wanting to live a short one? I think it's just as valid.

Still, I think it's fun to think about ways to be immortal. I'd surely try something if I thought it was going to give me a hundred more years on this world. :)

A nice song because why not: