Feeling Dejected In My Search

I desperately need a career change. I’ve been working in the food service industry for nearly a year now. I’ve been promoted twice in my first year, but I don’t want to do it anymore. I want so much more for myself and my family. I know I’m capable of so much more and I’m constantly disappointed in myself. I’m hard working, but I’m done with this chapter.

I need more money.

I want more time off.

I need a job that is better for my mental health.

What the heck do I do!?

I’ve applied to many jobs and I cannot get a job anywhere else.

Negative thoughts have infiltrated the Nebakanezer

Maybe I’m looking in the wrong places?

Maybe I’m not qualified.

Maybe this is the best I can do?

I’ve applied.

I’ve pondered.

I’ve questioned myself.

I’ve questioned others.

Finding peace and staying the course.

I worked at a cushy job for many years that didn’t challenge me very much. I feared that I would eventually pay the price. I feel like I’m now paying the musician and it hurts so damn bad. I’m so sad and depressed all the time. I feel like I’m directionless. I’m lost and I can’t find my way out of this quagmire that I’ve gotten myself into.

It hurts, but I need to move on. I need help.

My search continues…