Catholics aren't Christians. We're saved by faith alone in Christ alone guided by the Bible alone. We're not saved by infant baptism and obedience to church rules. Mary has no place in the life of Christian. She wasn't the mother of God. She can't hear you when you pray to her. She has no unholy influence over Jesus.

You can't live like a Christian if you're not even saved. If you haven't done it already, you need to repent of your sins and accept what Jesus did on the cross as payment for those sins. Then you need to accept Jesus as your Lord. Once you're saved you'll be indwelt by the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit convicts us of sin and leads us to the truth.

If you want to grow as a Christian you need to pray regularly. Not just reciting the Lords Prayer but pouring out your heart to God and confessing your sins to Him directly.