😂My point is, I too left the brainwashing of Religion, but I found that the rabbit hole is very deep bro. don't get stuck in paradigm lock at just the naive realism, rationalist materialist. The Universe ain't rational at all! 95% of the known universe is dark matter, so we only can work with 5%. We know jack shit.

An example of establishment endorsed genius, Einstein, in Paradigm lock.

Albert Einstein: God does not play dice.
Neils Bohr: Stop telling God what to do with his dice.

A life long argument between two friends concerning the deterministic vs probabilistic nature of Quantum mechanics. Consider me your friend.

An expert is a person who has made all the mistakes that can be made in a very narrow field.-Neils Bohr