Ok...im sorry for what happened. But evil is everywhere and there is a Spiritual realm that we cant see and its good against evil constantly.

Their are satan worshipers here now on this Earth that can cast spells on non believers...ive heard testimonies from them. Idk much about the evil because i dont practice it..im sealed by the Holy Spirit.
Im so very sorry that happened man...I love you!! Its NOT your fault and it sure isnt Gods... Its satan man, hes evil! Evil so evil dude ive seen people puke up globs of black junk because believers laid hands on her and told the demons to leave in Jesus' name and they sure in the heck left her body and left a huge black blob on the ground dude... and i live in the Bible belt...
I love ya man.. Jesus Yeshua Loves you....dont hold this inside, go talk to someone if you need to! Go talk to a preacher if you want to man maybe a psychiatrist if you want or just pray that's the real thing to do!