Time continues to turn second by second. Christmas had come. All the heavy loads disappeared while singing the Christmas carol. I thank the Almighty. I can still feel the peace of Christmas tonight. The calm atmosphere and just the lights that come on remind me of my life full of struggles. I feel lost and lost. I am like a person who failed to bring happiness to my parents. I was jealous of my friends who gave their parents smiles. Can I make my parents happy in old age? I'm scared and feel like a failure. For a moment my tears flowed. I can only ask for God's help in giving me the best path. On that Christmas Eve, I was reminded to always say thank you in any situation. I can't live in sadness. I have to try, I have to be excited, I can't be weak if I want to achieve what I expect. Thank you Christmas, thank God for teaching me to stay excited, which is what I hope.