So, I fucking LOVE clowns.

I am not completely sure what started my obssession but I do have one theory. When I was a child my mom's best-friend gave me a clown marrionette and it was BEAUTIFUL (if you like clowns) and hand made, wooden, just gorgeous craftsmanship. Well, when I had to go to foster care for a year my foster family stole/got rid of it.

So, maybe my adult obsession with collecting clowns is somehow linked to that experience from my childhood? I like to really dig-deep and analyze myself but also, maybe clowns are just cool as fuck and I like them. All I know, is that most of my friends are horrified by my clown collection. Especially my favorite clown. Curly.

Here is a picture of Curly and I together.

totally undoctored photo of Curly and I

Here is Curly hanging with my cat, Mouse.

Here is my gang of clowns. I have two sets of twins! :D

I don't have a ton of clowns even though I have been collecting for years because I am very picky

If you look closely you may notice the knife in Curly's lap.

Funny story about that. I woke up one day when I lived in a house with 3 roommates and noticed that knife in Curly's lay. My clowns were in front of my bed facing me so they could watch over me sleeping, it makes me happy to have my clowns watching me...Anyways, so I wake up and Curly's got a knife in his lap and I ran out and was asking all my roommates who put the knife in Curly's lap and they did a pretty good job convincing me it wasn't them. In fact, they thought I was the liar.

I ended up keeping it there. I figured Curly just wanted to protect me better.

No, I don't really think my clowns are alive or have any sort of powers but it's fun to think about and they do make me happy.

About a year ago I realized I want to be a clown. Sometimes.

I met a really cool clown a year ago and it made me realize being a fucking clown would be amazing. I am going to be the best bubble bender. And I am going to be on stilts sometimes. And each of my dreads will be dyed a different color so I have rainbow hair. No face nose, fuck that, I want to just paint my nose. I want to be a bit of a dark clown too. Maybe black clothes with rainbow pinstripes. We'll see, it's a work in progress. I won't be a clown FT though because I also want to be a cat, and a normal human sometimes. Well, okay not a normal human. But a non-clown human.

Look at those pretty blue eyes that close when he lays down. But sometimes only one closes. :D