How ironic the life is when you suddenly felt the sadness, loneliness the emptyness the feeling of being alone. The feeling of no one can understand you. No one knows your pain. No one knows how you're dying inside. The most painful part here is you don't have anything but just yourself. And here we go again still wearing the smile who hides a thousand of sadness. Isn't ironic? to pretend that you're okay but deep inside you're torning apart...
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After fighting for so long I am finally realizing that our relationship is not worth it anymore… I tried everything… I struggled so hard to make it work… but I think I am trying to stretch an elastic band beyond its limits. After all this time, you’re still the same. You’re still that same person who loves himself more than anything else. I don’t think you’ve ever really cared about my feelings. You’re a good person but that doesn’t make you the “one” for me. After meeting you I thought you would change and that eventually we would fit together well… but I was wrong. You never compromise and you never adjusted to me for the sake of the relationship. There have been so many times you’ve left me feeling broken and shattered… and I’m sorry but I can’t keep my self-respect on a stake anymore when you don’t even respect the love I have for you. I don’t think I can fight for you to fit in with me anymore. I have given you so much time to adjust and to compromise… to mature as a person… But you never really cared, and my patience has worn out. I can’t wait for you to change… I have seen our future together and the relationship only works because of me doing things to make it work. Every time I’ve ever thought of giving up on you, something in the back of my mind told me to stop… to stand again and try once more… But how long can I keep fighting this? Love is meant to be spontaneous and natural. It’s either there or it’s not… and if it is still not there – it never will be. I don’t want to settle for anything less than a real, fulfilling, loving relationship…. I want you to WANT me and not NEED me… You are good enough – but not for me… I can’t let myself break to a point where it becomes too difficult to rebuild… I’m sorry, but I’m not willing to put any more life into this relationship which I’m now realizing… is already dead…..!!