I am so sorry to hear this. I do hope you come back. If you recall, I came back after over a year of absence and my first post was immediately downvoted by a whale. You convinced me to stay with it. I have just avoided all the drama and stay away from those discussions.
By the comments here, you have a lot of people who enjoy your presence on Steemit. Just know that.
We all have to take our own path. I hope yours brings you back to us.