Damned if you do, damned if you don't

in damned •  8 years ago 

Being so young-- I'll be 34 in October-- makes it hard for me to qualify for disability. As if my anxiety/depression weren't bad enough. And working just isn't possible due to the hold anxiety has over me. There are days where I struggle to volunteer at my church. So what is the answer? I'm at such a loss and can feel my anxiety getting worse as I type this. There has to be help for people like me-- we're human too, right?

So I keep praying. I keep pushing myself to survive somehow. Through the chronic fatigue--the mornings are so hard--the afternoons where I can be a slug at times--the evenings where the thought of impending death haunts me and the bedtime exhaustion and blues. I know there's hope out there--I've witnessed miracles. So when do I get my break? When do others like me get our freedom, our relief?

"It will all come out in the wash"-- this is what my grandmother says, but with my luck I'll be like that sock that gets lost along the way...

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This is none of my business but have you been hospitalized for your condition or been diagnosed? The system is total bullshit and unless you have records or something on paper they wont give help.

I was hospitalized back in the latter part of 2015. I've been diagnosed and am on meds. I have papers to prove all this and have even been to a psychologist who said it would be hard for me to work, he wrote this in his report.

Not that your condition is "good" but that is good you have that that will help your case. Are you applying for ssi? If so provide then as many hospital stays or drs notes/names.

SSI will be my next option if disability falls through.