Good morning ma dear! :)
Well think I got good rest last night although I’m not quite sure — I went into granola, yogurt and banana mode as soon as I woke up so I’ve got that sitting the fridge ready for me to consume at some point this morning.
I hope you are not too mad about me not leaving you a blog post yesterday but the day kinda merged into one what with all the moderation that was going on, getting my top 10 and the dtube I just did not have enough mental capacity and we were both in the same headspace anyway.
Trying to make up for that this morning by jumping into a little blog post to you first thing — the weeks are stacking up eh - for one I’m kinda glad about it, it’s giving me realisation how much to push each day, I’m just waiting for that next month kinda tipping point where the crypto markets hopefully decide to start moving upwards again — we could certainly do with it on steem right?
Hard to believe we are in the middle of the week already, feel like I literally time traveled over the last couple of days, just a blue, Groundhog Day but I’m thankful to be where I am, safe and well, fed and watered, not scrabbling like before this time last year maybe, not at the end of my wits but in a calm place - I’m blessed about that.
I also look at the account and it pleases me that we still made those little drip feeds in, gonna make all the difference once we can order the next round of upgrades your side and get you up to speed for OBS streaming together, maybe we can do live moderation one day, that would be kinda fun, I’ve been thinking about doing that on @dlive at some point.
I can’t tell you how good it feels to be kinda semi back to normal here, the usual sounds of the animals at my door, it’s funny how different places have their own set of recurring sounds of wild life, like it’s their patch, they all turn up at the same kinda times and communicate, like wildlife field notes to each other — I was met by a frozen in their traffic squirrel when I opened the door this morning, he just locked up before I started to make tutting noises and then he was off up the tree.
not sure if you are having a rough time of it at the moment or not I know you went to bed early and I know you have some back pain, I’m really sorry to hear that, try and get some baths in, try and take some of that data onboard, pumped that you got a test booked in for more data thou, you can only truly operate on that right?
I know you will crush it, it might be worth every 3/4 weeks getting in touch with that woman you know via that app, just make bulletpoint notes that you can step through when you call here, maybe do ten questions so she has a good solid two minutes on each max to answer you know?
You know I’ve had a few times recently realising first hand about how money really effects people — including myself. The level of entitlement and greed and ‘needing to win’ mentally I’ve experienced in the last week has been off the charts — it’s really made me look at what I value in general in life and it always comes back to one thing — time.
If there is one thing I value above all else it’s my time, either along or with someone else it’s something that we have a hard time calibrating unless it’s alongside a ledger of time like the blockchain is — at least on the blockchain your proof of brain activity is scored and you can look back on it, see that you put the work in but with the analog expression of time we can waste so much of it seems some times — we kinda let it go, happy to give 1/3 of that away for sleeping in bed during our live times.
I realise of course our need for sleep, we need sleep of course we do but it still feels like I’m having years on years of moments stolen away from me by doing it, that in some way you don’t get that fully fledged life experience if you are only coasting through a moment instead of trying to juggle that time and bend it to our will — I’m constantly in a battle with my value of time.
I’m also battling with seeing SBD over $20+ in my tray bar, mocking me like that, I wish they would just remove that data source and do the average on the rest, hitbtc exchange is throwing the average out, you can’t even deposit or use the sbd wallet on the service so it’s pure just blag internally on their market — ugh, greed man, it’s everywhere.
I just got a message from you on discord, your awake at 04:40am some pains, I feel for ya, gonna stop writing this now because I’m switched over to that instead I can’t carry on writing here — hope the rest of the day is better.
I’ll speak to you shortly.
Lots of love and hugs and stuff,
Da Mouser,
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