depression and anxiety

Depression is the feelings of severe despondency and dejection. Or in other words, "self-doubt creeps in and that swiftly turns to depression"
Anxiety is a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease about something with an uncertain outcome.
Depression and anxiety are both terrible things to have on its own, but having them together is like hell.
People who suffer from both anxiety and depression are more likely to start committing self harm, and are at higher risk of obtaining other mental diseases such as a bipolar disorder, schizophrenia etc.
For me, a topic like this really hits home as my brother has been cutting himself, for a while actually. He's tried to commit suicide about 4 times as well (due to family problems). I also have a cousin who is going through so much and tried to kill himself a few days ago. He slit his arms, legs and throat. When I saw it, my else swelled with tears, I couldn't speak, I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep. I'm lucky enough to still have both my cousin and brother with me but for those who have lost family members due to a similar situation, I pray for you.
I might not know why it happened or how it makes you feel, but I understand what you're going through. And I know it's tough, but you're tougher. You're going to make it through this. Losing a family member due to suicide and sometimes pass that depression and anxiety on to you and influence you to start cutting and committing other forms of self harm, but it doesn't help. Trust me. It will only make things worse and leave you in more pain. Rather speak to a close friend or family member that you trust.
If you are suffering from depression or anxiety I suggest getting help as soon as possible before its too late. If you are cutting yourself, which I hope you aren't, you could draw something pretty where you feel the urge to cut. (Use something nontoxic and non permanent)
If you are suffering from depression or anxiety and are having suicidal thoughts, or know someone who is, please call one of the following:

National suicide hotlines
800-SUICIDE (784-2433)
800-442-HOPE (4673)

National suicide prevention lines
800-273-TALK (8255)

I pray that non of you have to go through this and if you are, I pray it gets better. Just stay strong and know that you will make it through this
~L-R-R-H