Dear soldier,
Was the kinda kid every one in the family looked up to as the first child expectations are much and it wasn't the same for me things change when i form a habit. Back in my secondary school days i have been a loner i had issues creating relationship with people even talking sometimes sucks but i was doing well at hiding this with a brilliant smile, but things change when i was baptist into pornography, i see it as a way of getting away from people and it gave me some peace then until it turned to addiction and i was lost, their is no way out!
I was suffering alone without hope of getting out, its been 8 years of fighting coupled with depressed, anxiety and panic. I wanted to get help but i couldn't no one around me understand and i don't want people to see me as weak. Especially when everyone around is so spiritual all you could get is check your ways with God and medical helps are not available around here, all i got is some couples of white friends helping me on Facebook
It was last year 2017 that i wanted to end it all i was ready to stop the pain, i already got an hypo it was a friend of mine who intervene
Even till today i am still in recovery and everyday i found more reasons to stay alive, the battle has never been easy but i promise you, you are not alone!
You will get out Alive!!
Hope!!!