To the ones whoever thought about suicide.

Have you ever felt so alone that no one is listening? Arguing with mom and dad and they just hate everything you do. Your friends are too busy with their life you have no voice whatsoever. Why are they even your friends if you can't vent to them? Your head is racing you try to find ways on how to kill yourself. You think about it once, twice, even the third time. You're committed on being suicidal, you know no one will miss you. STOP WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! I Genesis used to be the person described previously. I felt no one was listening to me except my therapist because well she got paid to hear me nag. Yes life is hard. Yes I felt I was alone. But you're not. I used to cut myself and tried to kill myself three times. But I survived. And I am so happy I didn't die. I met the greatest human ever who doesn't judge me and accepts me and my sad past. I am not saying love is the answer. But what I am saying is not being alone is. You don't need a boyfriend/girlfriend/etc to provide you with happiness. First it begins with yourself then you'll be able to not feel alone. I bet many are like "gosh this is so predictable." It is. But have you ever asked yourself, "wow I look great today?" I bet you haven't. I bet all you do is focus is on the negative and how you hate everyone. Don't worry about the others worry about yourself. You feel no one can listen to you, well write your problems in a journal. Or need someone physically to talk to. Well I won't be there physically but I am willing to hear you out. To give you my advice on how I overcame those thoughts. It took years believe me but that was because I was alone and no one to talk to. I am not a miracle worker that would be yourself but I am willing to help. Learn to love yourself and life will feel a little better. Begin to compliment yourself at least once a day. I am 160 pounds and I'm 5'3. I get called fat all the damn time. Honestly I love my chubby rolls. I love my brown skin. I love myself god damn it. I still have yet so much to learn. Try to mediate trust me you will feel spiritually better. If anyone needs any help message me or reply to this post. I'll hand you the tools I feel helped me then you build your building. You're not alone you feel you are but you're not.