Disgrace turned grace.

".. I'm your mum, and am so sorry for what i did to you"
I stared at the woman who called herself my mum
"How dare you" i said
And slammed the door

As i stood with my back against the door
Memories i had struggled to forget came flooding back
Wounds began to open
My suffering started immediately after fertilization

Some call it wedlock, i call it Gods plan
Babies were supposed to cry 1st at birth
But i cried everyday in mum's womb
As she tried ALL to kill me

I never felt loved by her
I was even scared of "kicking"
So as not to remind her i was still alive
Cuz all i heard for 9months was how much she hated me

In my womb days
I was scourched by concentrated salt solutions
I was poisoned by strong pills
I was bruised by doctors fangs and thorns
But God's grace kept me

I feed on fear all my womb life
I became aware of death even bfr birth
I remember dodging and screaming while doctors took turn to tear me apart, as i held on to mum's placenta begging for my life in pain

I thought doctors were trained to save the helpless like me
But they conspired to kill me

Instead of a loving hug
She constantly hit me hard, trying to force me out
I remember her calling me a disgrace
While all i ever wanted was to be her saving grace

Then finally i gave up the struggle to be loved by mum
And came out, lieing almost dead on a cold tray
I didnt even have the guts to cry one last time
So as not to be noticed by evil hands

Still alive, i was thrown like a piece of gabbage
In hopes i suffer and die
But His Grace found me
When humans failed me

25years later
I hear a knock on my door
And there she stood and dare call herself my mum
But the grace that found me has found her too, who am i to object?

So i opened the door once more as tears flowed from my eyes
And forgiveness from my heart
"Will you hurt me again" i asked, and she burst into tears and then i fell into her arms, and for the first time in my life, i felt a mother's love...

"Hi mum, my name is grace, and i miss you"