I DO NOT PERSONALIZE ANY SOCIAL MEDIA PLATFORM. THIS WILL BE THE FIRST....OOOK
I've always felt alien in my "natural surroundings" . At home, the only elder, my mother was well meaning hard working, but also wishy washy. Violently inconsistent. One moment watching Looney Tunes and laughing as hard as her children. The next she's commanded you to strip, beating you with fist and belt. Leaving you contiplating what had I done to warrant this. At school, I danced a line of clown and intellectual. Between loner and friend to anyone. Blacks kids kinda accepted me, but I didn't to stick to the script tight enough. White kids had fun, but the entitlement and judgement exhibited was so cringe worthy.
I've dance this dance for years. But after 20 plus years with my wife. And housing one of her family members consistently through out , an ephinany was granted to me.
I needed to be me. Me with out the intent of being loyal to someone at the cost of my happiness. Me without an effort of fixing things ik inside can never be mended.
At the age 44, I've had a stroke, renal failure, seizures, surgeries, addiction. Gunshoot outs to
home invadions . Sleep poralsist. And different forms of UFOs .That's life story in some way, for everyone. I just want to share my different stories. As feel needed idk why don't know why here. But lemme know if you relate. If you hate it.