Morning... Sigh. Sleep... but not sleep.

Just keeps happening all the time now, dream, wake up, go to sleep, back to same dream, wake up again, sleep again, same fucking dream, again.

Negating all the circumstantial evidence i've collected over the years, this is still the biggest thing for me.

I actually experience this shit first hand, and it didn't used to be like this.. Or maybe it did and I never knew.

But it feels like its increasing.

This time it was all like a big party, people were having sex, I was drugged. and even now waking up, i feel groggy like been been drugged, then it subsides.

When youre there youre usually tooo drugged to properly move, was like i was swaying from side to side trying to walk.