It did !!I woke up ,sadly ,after the mother of my daughter plug was pulled- knowing my troubles started when I protested my use of grass to my parents who dealt cocain & pharmaceuticals -
There’s no tin foil in my actual life it’s solid steal -
From being a kiddypornstar to growing into an avant-gardener rathole for Chicago elites -regardless by the time my baby was 9 she knew what I only recently experienced
I devoted all my efforts & knowledge to homeschooling her - a third grade private school was the last chance I gave the crytocrates -she now attending a private college on a scholarship for computer forensic sic & minor in the law society & today she’s come home for break -
I may be responsible for get her where she want , literally; single handedly - but it’s time to work on myself & coming clean to serious malfunctions I only ignored
Something has come & now it’s leaving-my eyes have seen things most don’t even speculate & I did nothing but feed of people caught in the power structure that didn’t apply to me - I see her & I postulate can I do what I never dreamt of - yet - be happy? - its almost too easy to connect the dots or misery & pain where I am to disappear -being so alone now & not playing my prescribed role or choosing a new one not here yet - I’m nearly defeated and lost & that’s is what I’m most positive about- Nevertheless...
THANK YOU BROTHER for those to kind words & ALL YOU DO !! You sure make it easier coping !
One day soon I hope to just scribe the unbelievable webs woven, I’ve seen -you are a deep inspiration & a helpful tool ( if that makes any sense?) bless be & All that Good Jazz Dada