Oh Henya I'm so sorry to read about this. You're one of the good ones and it's totally unfair what yt is doing this to you. You are so passionate about what you do, you should be able to make a living out of it.
If you ask me, I've been watching your videos for three years, and I know that it sound stupid but I really feel like I know you, it amazes me how authentic you're with your audience and how strong your message is. I really think that you don't need to join the military, I feel like all those things that you see as "lack of skills" it is what makes you unique. you been through so much shit and you stood up and give a big fuck you to all your problems. You found your way to get to know all the places you wanted, even when you thought that you were never be able to travel because of where you come from, you pull through it and in the last year ONLY DURING LAST YEAR you've been to 14 countries!!!!!! I think that at this point you need find who you are again and you will be able to make a living, out of anything you want! maybe steemit maybe instagram or run your own blog or who knows. but I definitely think that your place is on social media, you have a strong ability to make others feel related with your story and your message and it would be a shame that you stop doing this, animals needs you, other vegans needs you, people with anxiety and orthorexia anorexia and all of the things that you overcame.
Maybe if you try to remember who you were some years ago it will make you change your mind, I remember when you went to paris and even you couldn't believe that you where there, that you made it. I believe that you can made it through all of this shit to.
I'm sending you all my love and good vibes so you can find yourself again.
Sincerely.
Ailen