The Energetic Mystery

in energy •  6 years ago  (edited)

Alright, energy work people ...I still haven't quite figured this one out.

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admire Yuan's glorious belleh while I gather my thoughts

I have a history of breaking jewelry. My whole life. And I don't mean, I snagged a chain on something and oh no it broke, I mean metal pendants snap in half. Anything too close to my throat chakra is doomed. I need a torc.

But it's not just necklaces, it's bracelets - lots of bracelets. I've been wearing copper therapeutically for my painful wrists and hands since I was 16, and magnetic hematite since my mid-20s. I've gone through A LOT of bracelets. And the thing about the bracelets, besides yes, they do deal with legitimate getting banged around more - is that they break in bathrooms. While I'm sitting there pooping and not doing anything with my hands. 😂

I first noticed this when I started wearing mala beads. Supposedly when your string of mala beads breaks, it means you have worked off some karma. Well boy, I've worked off a lot of karma, because pop, pop, pop! I actually haven't worn them in a long time because I got tired of washing (because bathroom floors) and restringing them so often.

At first I thought, is it the feng shui of my bathroom? Because I've had oodles of plumbing problems there as well, including rain - in the bathroom - when a pipe burst two stories up.


I literally used the toilet with an umbrella during this. Nature called.

My bathroom is the NW corner, btw, but nope, it's not specific to my bathroom, or that position on a bagua map, because it once happened in a friend's bathroom (middle west of her house) and the bathroom at my doctor's office (center of the building). It's just bathrooms.

So ...what the fuck? LOL

Now, I'm going to be honest and say that I have PTSD, and the most common place where I dissociate is the bathroom, but I have a very mundane explanation for that: it was the only safe place in my parents' house growing up where I could lock a door and let my guard down for a minute. And it's almost always that - I'm seeing a man about a dog or showering, completely lost in my head, then am jarred back to reality by the sound of beads falling. With my hands doing nothing. I don't know if it's ever happened when I was fully present.

So I'm running energy and shattering things while dissociated? That sounds kinda funny but I've been working a lot with hand chakras of late.

If any of y'all have any ideas that might give me a clue by four, I'd appreciate it, because obviously SOMETHING needs attention and I'm too slow to catch on.

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Maggie investigates the strange bathroom energies

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I hope you get the answer that you seek Phe!

...admire Yuan's glorious belleh while I gather my thoughts...

Boy did I ever! Scrolled back up to give it another loving look <3

Well, Phe. You aren't the only person who could take a shower while seated on the throne! I don't recall ever living in an apartment where a pipe didn't burst on the floor above me and it was always in the bathroom above the throne. I now live in a one floor house. Problem solved! LOL I hope you figure out what you are supposed to do...

Aw geez I'm sorry you feel my pain on that one, lol. And thanks!

To get all woo woo mystical metaphysical for a moment... confining energy with bracelets and necklaces instead of allowing it to freely flow could be a part of this. A torc instead of a necklace and a bracelet that has an opening might work well for you. Maybe something that is a spiral instead of a closed circle?
Obviously your energy... expands? Open? Blooms? When you feel safe.

I've been dwelling on your comment all day. I used to wear all copper cuffs, but I broke those, too, which is why I primarily switched to beads, because at least I could restring those. But a spiral of hammered copper is poking my brain like a great focusing idea. If I could keep it from snagging on everything, lol.
The "my energy expands when I feel safe" thing, though - not to get into it too much, but that's been a suspicion for a while because of a long story kinda reason, but I've been struggling to try and figure out how to feel safe enough all the time, on purpose. I'm better than I used to be, in a lot of ways - my anxiety levels have ratcheted WAY down and I no longer have to cocoon myself away in a cave like I used to in order to relax (like, I couldn't sleep without being in a bedroom with a locked door, even when it was just me and the cats in my own apartment. Now I sleep in the living room and doors never shut inside for the most part). But I still can't get to where I know I can be. Hmm. Ideas are baking. Thanks for the prompt.

What an interesting mystery!

I have a few friends who cannot wear watches. Digital or analog, they stop working within a day or so. For them I think what's going on is that they are untrained energy workers. They have the energy but haven't learned how to focus.

Breaking a necklace has only happened to me once. It was a strand of garnets connected by metal loops. I was leaning over a sink and it just popped and the necklace slithered down the drain! First thought was the garnets weren't the right stone for me. Second was I was feeling angry and very ungrounded.

So, that's the direction I'd go, to look at how grounded you are when it happens. With PTSD you have a lot of free-flowing energy. I would also vote for @jamethiel's suggestion of an open spiral. Maybe a memory wire type of necklace or bracelet?

I have broken so many watches. XD I gave up wearing one years ago.
I have often referred to myself as like George Clooney's character in The Men Who Stare At Goats in the scene where he walks by a bank of computers and they just all fry. Yep ...that's my energy. LOL
I have some reiki training, but I definitely still feel like even though I can do that, and people say they feel the effects a lot, I am mostly not focusing it and I have a lot of basically sporatic, frenetic, pent up energy.
I also, given the throat chakra busting out all over, feel like that's part of the reason my teeth break. I had a dream either last night or the night before that my teeth all healed and grew back! I didn't remember until just now! I woke up and felt them with my tongue and was disoriented for a minute.

That is a very good dream! I don't 'do' dreams but even I can tell it was a message of healing!
Well then, If I were working with you on your energy the first step would be getting you really grounded. Practice that for a while, then practice throwing out your energy and containing it, feeling the difference. It's like opening and closing your fist.
Energy flows like water. An ocean, a river, a garden hose, depends on what you want to use it for.

I know nothing about any of it, but that's super crazy that so many bracelets have broken on you. That would freak me out too. ☺

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Well you've definitely stumped me, my dear. You obviously have some very powerful energy.

Have you ever done energyworker training, or considered it? You'd probably be amazing at helping others once you developed skill in focusing your energy intentionally.

I'm level II in Usui reiki.

Aha! Yes, you've got some powerful energy running. Think about whether you'd like to go deeper on that path with some Medicine Buddha empowerments. Unlike Reiki (which is a subset teaching out of buddhist Medicine Buddha tradition) you aren't normally charged a set fee for those empowerments. If they are done by an authentic Tibetan Buddhist teacher, they are typically offered by donation, though an amount may be suggested at the door.

I've had MB empowerment 5 times, and find now that my energy is much more focused. Actually there are a lot of changes that came with opening to the broader teaching.

I actually haven't heard of that before, thanks for the info!

Yuan is a big fat fluff ball. He needs to go on the catkins diet LOL.

He has been on every diet and feeding/exercise regimen, you don't even know. LOL. He has food allergies it turns out, and I think he's lost a little weight actually since he's been eating the allergy-safe food, but I haven't weighed him in a long time.

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