ENGINEER’S LIFE UNDER CONSTRUCTION

One day when I woke up
My heart was injured
TRUST has been broken
FRIENDSHIP has been tested
RELATIONSHIP was over
And LIFE was devastated

LOTS of thoughts running in mind
Seeking answers of how and why?!
Evaluating what’s wrong and then cry

Human as we are, we get tired.
Counting the tears I Cried
I thought that It was never worth a try
We have to move on
And do our best to try

I thought DENIAL is the best way in able to move on
Cause there is no more reason to HOLD on
And so I Dedicate my whole life to all my responsibilities as Engineer.
Focusing and improving my career

I am a Civil Engineer,
I used to monitor Repair/Renovations/Improvement/Expansion and New Construction
of various infra structure project to make it more functional and operational.
Monitor its progress and will look for improvements to fast track the project.

Years of denial and letting myself get even busier
I didn’t know that my real life was being left behind.

One day, as I reflect
I saw myself lonely.
I forgot that my heart that loved too much was broken and needed repair.
I forgot that my life was damaged and needed a Renovation.
My lifestyle was a mess and needed an Improvement.
My mind was closed, (limited only to all negative thoughts) and needed Expansion.
My life was demolished & devastated and needed a new construction.

I forgot to monitor myself,
The progress towards my happiness.
Didn’t able to compute the liquidated damages for the extended days of suffering.
No one just gave me A NOTICE OF WARNING that my days of suffering is overdue.
That I incurred negative slippage because
I didn’t know that the target plan of accepting and moving on had expired.

I have nothing but a lonely and hopeless self.
To the point I decided to put my life in Termination

But I thanked God that in this World full of Misery
There is still a chance to say I’m Sorry
I tuned to God and asked for sorry
And He bring me to a Story..

To be continue......