[Open letter series] To the worst CPS worker you can get | Because writing is healing

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To Miss X

You were the one from CPS we had to deal with, that made me pull out many hairs, due to frustration of you just not listening. When we met, I immediately saw that you weren't the person that the children and me would benefit from. You're a cold young woman, and you obviously haven't had too much life experience yet. Because a younger person doesn't have to be a bad thing, I don't have a problem with that if you act like an adult. But you, my gosh you were acting like a toddler many times, because YOU had written down the information incorrect, and when I pointed you at these facts, you kept acting like a toddler that was about to have a tantrum. You could never give another person the time to speak, you were always interrupting, so rude! And you could not take any criticism, you hated my guts and you hated me and my boyfriend for not just taking anything you say for the truth. Sorry we knew better by then.

I wonder by now if you're really that twisted too or you're just one of the puppets working at CPS

You would have made a good match with the father of my children. And I think you thought so too, because it was obvious to see that you look at him in a certain way. You were one of the persons he had wrapped around his fingers, with his charm. You were exactly not the person that should be on a case where there is a narcissist or even psychopath involved. You being on our case made the lives of me and our children to a living hell. But as you are from CPS you don't actually care about any facts, it's not about who tells the truth and what is best for the children (even though this is what CPS always says) it's about who starts making the other person look bad early enough. It doesn't matter if the things that are said are true, or if this is the game of a very sick person that is on a mission to ruin lives... No, the first one that will point the fingers is the one you pick sides with.

You didn't ever do your work properly, not once!

But you should have looked in the files at CPS first lady, because a certain while ago, before I ran away with the 2 children the father, there was another incident. And the police had come to the house, after this CPS got a message from the police because there are children involved. And we had to go to your office, and one of your colleagues heard our story. The father admitted then and there that he had a serious drinking problem, and with that anger issues. He promised not to drink anymore, and that was it. She closed the case. But should this not mean something? The person admitting that he was the problem, and then after a while the mother rans to a shelter with the children, but all of this is forgotten all of the sudden? Have you ever had to deal with a person with a bad drunk yourself? Have you ever been in that position? My advice is to have a look in the old files next time, it can give you some inside information that is crucial to the case. Because those persons tend not to stop after one time, usually it only gets worse.

Can you even live with the thoughts of destroying families? Do you have children of your own by now?

And you were one hell of a team. Damn, how can you sleep at night ignoring what is happening in these lives of these innocent children? How can you make agreements with a loving mother who is forced to "voluntary" surrender the children to the father (who has been violent several times not long before in front of them and is on the waiting list to see them supervised by CPS!!!!!) and then let this person just keep the children from the mother? How could you do this to them? How could you ignore the fact that there were several witnesses in the same room, and the fact that the father even spoke out loud in front of you all, that the children belong with their mother, you know: ME!

I am curious how your life looks like in some years, let's see by the time I look you up online who's doing better

I will never forget your name, nor your face.. I will also not forget how you mocked about our plans to earn money with arts while the municipality did not give our money for months. Instead of seeing the power to keep going, you had to mock us. Those plans by the way, they weren't just "vage plans" we studied for months while the children were sleeping! We kept researching every spare minute when we did not have to deal with you or those other stupid agencies that were determined to destroy our family! There will be a day that I can mock you, showing off with what we accomplished, because we weren't ready to give up. And there will be a day in the future that I will accidently see your profile somewhere, or maybe read about you, to remind me I have something to share with you. I will remember your name, and you will also remember mine when you will see or hear from me.

You're a sheep that kept me out of my sleep (a lot in the past)

You are the perfect example of a caseworker that even a person in sheep mode (not seeing the corruption in those agencies like CPS) can discover. Because you are too stupid to cover up your intentions. But that doesn't make a difference for the loving families you tear apart anyway, as you get to play God! I hope you will never have to experience what we have been through, even though two years ago I would have said that I hoped you would but even ten times worse. I am a better person now, I learned to deal with things without holding grudge that much that it affects my daily life. You are not that important anymore, by writing you this open letter I am working on healing from the pain you have caused us, and that I am moving forward step by step.

I wish you not the best, but also not the worst anymore (and trust me that's huge progress for me!)