When Hope Has to End

morning air cool is the first air that my breathe in high school this. my heart happy, because it is my dream since I dating with realized we can go to school in the same school. actually my parents want me to get into another school but because I want a school here, I was allowed to go to school here. since the early registration up to follow the Mos I and he is mutual surreptitiously of view because we don't hold if not meet each other although not speak. when following the direction was he still sempatnya choose the adjacent to me. "sin you, tired not?" she asked. "guns Islamic congregation, why? you plasticity thirsty, I had a drinking water for you." I replied "thanks Yes sinta Unfortunately" he said quietly. just my answer with a smile sweetest that my give. like that's activities that we do during the following activities Mos in the school.  a week after Mos irregularities feels to me. Yes! he only in touch briefly then disappear whether where. one night I was asking an explanation to him. "Islamic congregation, you why the hell every day hard really dihubungin, SMS long really dibales eh if I telfon you, you his diem mulu, if asked you always responsible again bales text from friends, actually who wrote the hell friend friend who SMS you that?" I asked a bit of emotions "there Nita, the same early" he said short "says Dong if night tuh not have to SMS ATO 3 times a day bales SMS they tuh, time you for I tuh already not there again, if emang you already changed Yes already we dropped wrote" I said. "not Unfortunately, I apologize, Yes I will not so again Kok, we improvement Yes, they tuh wants deket at me, I didn't really that deketin them." he said. "okay we improvement, but if once again we dropped out real Yes my Dear?" I said little threatening. "Yes, my Dear the most beautiful" he said a few days there changes from it, but a week already passed all repeated until I was decided. I want to think of feelings and after he was aware of him back to me as usual. but after 2 months was he remains to be like that and we do HTS (open relationship). one day at school, I get news if he returned with friends Elementary his it now is close to him. and according to penuturannya she loved it. I was directly not call to the next day. atmosphere in class next day was a little different. "sin you why? what I made a mistake again same you?" he suddenly when I was a dreamy. "not not Papa why not there are gak need peduliin I again" I replied short while away from him. Aji also follow me until we stopped at labor of physics, and when my hand achieved, he pulled back to the class. all the attention of were fixed in the US. "sin try you check HP, I want you bales and it's quick." he said he looked at me sharp. I am at least can if he looked at me like that. I was obey open HP and soon my reply short messages with answers: I don't Papa but heart I pain, I know you return him right, because i'm not Papa i'm not angry Kok, we're already not there relationship not entitled also I mad at you. "sin sorry I love you, I don't know if you jealous but I will not ngulangin again Kok, last time I want to go home, he is willing to take part I, Yes I invite wrote, sorry Yes" he said that made me believe him. "okay but you are gak boong right? I maafin you" I replied. However, as usual all reoccur and I kept forgive him. and a when I get news that he had a relationship with her. "Islamic congregation, I want you honestly you courtship same early Yes?" I said to him when we are working on a matter physics that afternoon. with little surprised he said "said who? emang why?" with a smile. with little hold tears I was saying "if Yes want to ask peje meatballs place we eat" laughing. "Yes I am going out, when want to eat?" he said atonal guilty. "not have to Kok, thanks Yes already rich Gini to me" with tears I ran to the bathroom cry sejadinya in it. friends friends and friends karibku waiting out of the bathroom it. "I gakpapa co" with a little choked I answer all questions those seen from their eyes. me back to the class with feelings destroyed all because when yesterday he said will always love me and never want to replace myself with others. Yes I know he used is the most keep promise and now he is a loser. the next day I back heard if he has been dating for a year. my heart the destroyed, I was not able to stem the tears. the day of my life destroyed, whether how many tears to my remove the month-long because Aji dating early. "sin, I love you, I don't want you ninggalin me, I promise as soon as I putusin early but don't know when," he said when I go home school with him. "Yes I hold promise you but I don't want you nyakitin I again," I hoped "Yes, I promise Dear" he said more than a month I wait for the promise kept actually never kept, and even more and be as they were dating in front of my eyes. ahead birthday which I have to 15 years, I was more disappointed to him. but when day anticipated arrived I read the text of the early for him "don't courtship same sinta Yes my boyfriend Unfortunately, you only henna i'm not girlfriend he" instantly my day destroyed instantly.

During the second afternoon my best friend Vina and Trinia had ordered a cake for my birthday. Me and Aji went to school for a call to school now. While on the road, Aji wants me to go home, but I insist on going to class. Up at the aji gate said, "my dear anter until here aja ya, do not go in, let it early not unsuspecting" I replied "do not want to anther me until dalem bodo very want liat or not baseball I do not care that nganter I come here you ! "I replied in a high tone.

After that I was never with him again. I too slowly drifted away from him after a great fight between the three of us and Aji sided with Dini. I also slowly calm my heart even though I still really love the man, and still can not forget it. Aji still often sms, chat fb, skype, said that he loved me very much and did not want me to go away from him. But what may be said that rice has become a porridge my trust in him has vanished all. I do love him and still expect it, but I know if maybe someday this load of heart will slowly escape from my life. I did not even want to talk to him even to meet him I feel like crying. Until now I still love you very much, but I do not know how long this affection will be, I'm sure if it's all lost maybe someday you'll need me beside you.

And right now I'm forgetting you and I'm trying to achieve my dreams and fulfill my dreams with all the problems you've done. Yes the problem arose until the teacher was berating me in every class he taught, or a class brother who hated me.