My love For you, Zia

My love For you, Zia

Tonight it was raining so hard on earth. The thunderous sound that sometimes interspersed with lightning strikes never subsided. I sat staring at a beautiful face tucked into my wallet. That very sweet smile can always cool my heart. He has snatched every beat from my heart. I do love him. Sincere. Without tarnished desire to just kiss his thin lips or embrace his beautiful body. I just want to love him.

I closed my wallet and laid down my body. My eyes wandered over the ceiling of my rented room. Life itself is not good. But I have no choice. After the departure of my parents, there was nothing I could maintain. Armed with their relics, I decided to move to the city. Trying to work and thank goodness to be in college like the expectations of my late parents. Who would have thought it was also that brought me to the girl's owner smile the most beautiful. Zivana Angelica. Zia, a friend who ended up being my friend. It's just that she did not know that I thought she was more than that.

Tok! Tok!
I heard the door of my rented house knocked. I got up, stepped forward because it was getting louder.
"Zia ..?!"
I stared. The girl who had just filled my head now appeared in front of my door. Her clothes were soaking wet. Zia went straight in and sat on a wooden chair in my living room.

"Can you borrow her clothes, Ren? It's very cold. "She shivered.
"Oh, yeah." I immediately woke up from the seconds of my reverie. Luckily Zia did not realize I was staring at her.
After changing clothes, Zia sits next to me while sipping the hot tea I made for her. I glanced at the wall clock. Nine o'clock. What the hell brought her here tonight?

"Hello?! Rendi ..? "
Zia waved her hand in front of my face. I am surprised. Huft! Now I'm caught dreamily.
"Do you fuck what?" He asked.
I shook my head.
"I can tonight here tonight, Ren?"
I was startled and stared at him. "Why are you?" I asked cautiously.
Zia is silent. Then looked at me for a moment. Suddenly his eyes filled with tears.
"Zia, what is it?" I asked worriedly.
"Rendi ..." Zia just sobbing in my arm.
I'm confused do not know what to do. What happened to him? Can not take it anymore, I gently stroked her wet hair.

Ren, I'm pregnant ... "
I was shocked. As if thousands of knives pierced right into my heart. Unconsciously I pushed his body and immediately rose. Zia was shocked and pulled me back into my seat. I just stared at him in disbelief.
"I ran away from home."
The next sentence from Zia's mouth made me even more surprised. Why is this girl I love so?
"I'm afraid Papa will get angry, Ren. I do not dare say. "
"And that jerk guy?" I asked with a sharp look.
Zia sobbed. "Hans just disappeared. I can not reach him. "
My jaw hardens. "Did you go to her house?"
"The house is empty. His aides said, Hans sent his parents abroad. "
I clenched my fist. "That's why I never liked you to get in touch with him, Zi. Hans is a jerk! He's just being sweet in front of you letting you conquer him. "
"I'm sorry, Ren. I have not been listening to you, "he said regretfully with growing tears.
My eyes are dimly staring at her face. Kuelus slowly his shoulders.
"Yes, you take a break first. Tomorrow we talk again. For now you are here first, do not go anywhere. Do not go to college. "
Zia nodded. "Thanks, Ren. You're a good friend. "

I smile bitterly. Do you know, Zia? My heart ached to hear the sanctity of your dignity sullied by that bastard. My heart ached seeing you thrown like this. Zia, I want to get you to remove your pain.

Six o'clock in the morning. I took my room neatly. My dining table has been served white rice and omelet. Zia came out of the bathroom and greeted me. Her face is fresh even though I still see the swelling in her eyes.
"Zi, later in the afternoon after I work, we go to the doctor to check your womb," I said on the sidelines of breakfast.
Zia looked surprised. "To the doctor?"
I smile. "Let whatever your womb should be maintained. You've never checked? "
"You do not lecture this afternoon?"
"Today I have no class. Lagi live this thesis. "
"But I'm ashamed, Ren." Zia lowered her head.
"There's me, Zi." I tried to calm him down.

Finally Zia agreed and in the afternoon after work I escorted her to the doctor. Apparently Zia's content has gone eight weeks. Soon his stomach would be visible. And I had to persuade Zia to be honest with her father.
"Must be your dear Father, Zi. Come on, go home. Later I'll help you talk to your daddy, "I persuaded her.
"Papa will be furious, Ren. I'm afraid. Papa must be in shock. "Zia insisted not to go home.
"I'll take responsibility."
Zia looked at me. "You mean?"
"I'll marry you," I said quietly.
Zia was aghast, then shook her head quickly.
"No, Ren! Why would you do that? "
"Zi, your son needs a father."
"With your ngorbanin? No, Rendi! I'm a dirty girl. Do not cover up my shame with your kindness. "
I saw Zia's eyes filled with tears.
"I'm not sacrificing myself. I just want to help my best friend. Is that wrong, Zi? "I asked.
Zia just sobbed. "No, Ren .."
"We're going to see your father, and I'll be responsible for your pregnancy. Never tell your papa or anyone else if the child in your womb is not my son. Only we know this, Zia. This time please listen to me. "
Zia continued to cry looking at me. I do not know what's on his mind. But slowly I saw him nodding his head.

Papa Zia is so angry when we confess that Zia is now pregnant with my child. Zia was scolded. I also got hit by raw bogem from his father. We did not dare to fight, but I saw Zia crying sad when he saw me beaten his father.
"I'm here to take responsibility, Om. I'm going to marry Zia. "I say in the blow of his father's increasingly blind fate.
Suddenly Papa Zia grabs his chest and pain. Zia and I were both surprised.
"Papa ... Ren, the heart of Papa recurrent!" Zia exclaimed.
I am shocked. Really I do not know if his father had a history of heart disease. If you know, maybe I will not act this fast.

Rendi ...! "
Zia's scream surprised me who was studying to face my thesis trial tomorrow morning. I immediately got up and ran to his room.
"Why, Zi?" I asked in panic as I saw Zia grimace in pain while holding her stomach.
"Ren, my stomach is really sick .. ouch! Maybe I want lahiran .. "
"What?" I panicked. My face paled in confusion.
"Ren .. Do not panic .. We go to the hospital .." said Zia.
"Oh yes!"

I immediately rushed to prepare for Zia's needs. He immediately I say to his car. Along the way I panicked so Zia tried to calm me while grimacing in pain in his stomach.
"Do not speed, Ren .. Dark .." Zia repeatedly reminded me.
I immediately yelled for a doctor when I got to the hospital. Zia was immediately addressed. A middle-aged nurse tried to calm me down.
"First child yes, sir? Do not panic. Must be strong because at any time your wife will need you. "
I just nodded without being able to muffle the turmoil in my heart.

"Mr. Rendi? Your wife wants to talk. "
I went straight into the delivery room. I saw Zia smiling. Immediately I hold his hand.
"Ren, you go home. Tomorrow's your morning thesis trial. "
I shook my head. How could I leave him?
"I can not leave you, Zi. The trial may be delayed another day. "
"Rendi, listen! I want you to graduate, Ren. You must come for trial. I'll wait. The baby is not coming out yet. "
Zia tried to smile reassuring me.
"I'm not sorry for myself if you get canceled thesis trial," he said.
I looked at her worriedly, then nodded. "I'll stay trial. But I'm not going home now. "
"Ren .."
"Tomorrow morning I go home. And after the trial I'll be here. "I said.
Zia smiled. "Thanks, Ren. I do not know what my life would be like if you were not there. "
I love you so much, Zia. Whatever I must do for you, though you never know the contents of my heart.

I rushed to the hospital after the thesis trial. Throughout the trial I could not concentrate on thinking about Zia, but I did not want to disappoint her, so I did my best to answer the questions of the lecturers.

"Mrs. Zivana's husband?" Asked a nurse as I was about to go to the room where Zia was being treated.
"Yeah, Sus. My wife why, Sus? "I asked frantically.
"Calm down, sir. Zivana's mother is still in the delivery room. Zivana's mother asked me to tell you that you have come. Congratulations, sir .. your son and mother alhamdulillah healthy. "
I was flabbergasted. I can not describe how good I feel about the sentence. "My son is a boy?"
The nurse nodded. "Later if your wife has been transferred to the treatment room, you can meet her."
Zia smiled at me who was coming to her. I immediately grabbed his hand.

Hans more often meet Zia and Rizki. I wonder what he really meant. Is it really just dividing the affection on the flesh's blood? Or also to approach Zia?
"Ren, Hans already apologize," Zia said one night after putting Rizki to sleep.
Without Zia further talk I already know that she must have forgiven him.
"He still loves you." I said withholding the unhappiness in my heart.
"She already said."
"And you?"
Zia looked at me. "Are you afraid I'm back with him?"
The question was actually easy for me, but my voice certainly could not come out to answer it.
Zia took my hand.
"After what we've been through together, do you think I'll leave you? After all the sacrifices you made, can it be so easy that I left you? "
My heart feels bloody. So this is due to repayment? Is that the only meaning of our togetherness to you, Zia?
"I will not get in the way of your happiness," I said flatly.
"Rizki is my happiness. And I can see how happy Rizki is when he calls you Papa. "
I know Rizki is happy with me, Zia .. but are you so? I whispered to myself.
"You know Hans will not give up?" I asked.
"I do not know what Hans has the heart to snatch the flesh of his own flesh .." he said softly.
I hug Zia's shoulder.
"Even if you stay with me, someday Rizki will know if I'm not her real father."
Zia tilted her face to look at me. Her clear eyes were so wistfully angry. Zia, I am so afraid of losing you and also Rizki .. Either courage from where without realizing I have touched her thin lips. Sip her softness.
"Ren ..?"
"Sorry ... I'm sorry, Zi .. I'm mistaken .." I said immediately rose from the bed.
"Emm .. Rizki already sleep. I want to continue office work again. You go to sleep first. "I tried to cover up my nerves.

"Please do not bother my family, Hans .. I really love Zia and Rizki. I know he's your flesh blood, but I love him like my own son. Please, Hans .. Let us open our life sheet. You can meet Rizki, but do not take him from me. I promise, someday he'll know you're his real father. "
Now I stood before Hans, humbled myself. I've been thinking carefully. I have to keep my family. Whatever Zia's past, I've married her and she is my responsibility.
Hans stared at me.
"Have you asked Zia what she loves you too?"
"Hans, please. Zia's Relief. We're all right before your presence."
"You think I'll release them for you? Rendi, think carefully before talking to me. "
Hans smiled wryly then left me.

Plaakk!
I hold the corner of my lips. Zia looked at me angrily.
"Hans has told me everything! Why do you beg for Hans? Stupid! Why are you doing that, Ren ?! "Zia exclaimed, sobbing.
I'm just silent.
"I told you I will not leave you!"
"I do not need your reply." I reply flatly.
"Who is the recipient? I love you, Ren. You're the only one who can understand me. "
"Yes. I'm your best friend right? "I asked with sharp eyes.
Zia is getting sobbing. "More than a friend, Rendi ... I love your kindness. I love your attention. I love my husband more than just friends ... I can learn to love you ... "
I gasped. "Zia .. you ..."
Zia immediately hugged me. "Tell me you love me, Ren! Why do not you ever say? Why do I have to know from someone else's mouth? "
I replied to Zia's embrace. "I've always loved you, Zi .. Love you so much .."
I have no idea. My heart was so relieved after telling me my true feelings.

We open our new life sheet, Ren? "He asked after removing my embrace.
"Hans?" I asked angrily.
"Hans will more often overseas take care of his business. He only asks to be allowed to see Rizki occasionally. "
"I even allowed her to love Rizki. I can not deny his blood flowing in Rizki's body. Hans is still his real father. "
"And you are also a very dear father," said Zia smiled.
"Papaa ..." Rizki ran small and immediately hugged my legs. I just bowed and picked him up. Rizki hugged my neck tightly.
"See for yourself, right? I just lose to you. "Zia commented.
Suddenly Rizki kissed my cheek.
"Mama too dong, honey." I begged.
Rizki came forward and kissed Zia's right cheek. As soon as Rizki retreated I hastily kissed his left cheek.
"Oh, the father does not want to lose!" Zia exclaimed.
"Tonight we make a sister for Rizki yuk?"
Zia glared and pinched my arm. We laughed together.

Maybe Zia says I sacrifice too much for her. But really I did not sacrifice, Zia. I only love you. That's all I know.