"Fight for your right" - Beastie Boys would sing some xx years ago... what does it mean to fight ? To be fighting ? How do you define it .... interesting if you look in the layers behind/beneath... huh ?
Looking at the word "fight" and also "defend", I have opened up some memories that in particular highlights my years growing up and yes; fighting in public school in Norway. When I was 7 till 16; 1985 until 1994, I would fight and quarrel a lot in school. I was often in fights with other pupils.
"He was fighting hard and the he won" - the only thing we win from fighting is ego, justifying our energy addiction and believe inn/about a fight.
Consciousness and our minds are designed to keep us in a locked-down position, and into clamming religion, limiting believes or alternate realities of our mind. And we fight for our right to limit our self. Either it is fighting for our limitations of what type of God/Illusion/religion/believe/addiction. You know, It is about what energies and programs we allow to govern our minds.
Like this : If I place, in my mind/box a energy that I call "Fear of God". I have this entity (!) or energy in my mind that have identified as "Fear of God" entity. This entity is then programmed from me, as a Fear of God entity. I can assure you that this entity would do just about anything to justify its existence - within my mind. My mind would be exited and thrilled lol, to suit this energy/entity and it would throw a huge fight and make lots of consequences, and commotion, to defend this entity.
Our mind and the box we all carry around on our heads - is pure energy. In addition to that (!) it has its programming and rather advanced functions like we know. Life on planet earth has because of this, for eons of times been in reverse. We have not been honoring life, rather opposite : we have been abusing life for our own limitations of ego and money.
So fighting (and wars) have been a component in this mind game where we are blinded by imaginations and energies, desires etc. To have our "win" in the fight to secure our ego/religion/entity - all simple mind games.
Now there are many ways our minds are rigged (!) to have us go into and seek fighting. Either as reactions in our head, with nasty backchats and voices/drama in the head/mind. Driven by jealousy and competition, arrogance and ego.
I am born skizofrenic. Se video : skizo 1 & skizo 2 This means that I am quite used to fight my own personalities in my head and my mind. The definition of skizofrenia is that war inside, wars between 2 or 3 of oneness personalities. That war and fight of oneness mind between personalities results in the suffering skizofrenic.
Nasty backchats, negative spiteful thoughts, judgment and blame are also ways to fight, and ultimately it is all done against self. It all points back at self eventually. So within so without, as above so below. Though when we play it out like we do - it does without a doubt have a hurtful and harming effect first to our victim and further escalating there, and then later it strikes back at self. So it is like a nasty virus and illness that can, and have been spreading like wildfires. So for me it has so far be quite a eye opener, to realize in particular those adolescent years of fighting in school, where I was building up loads of energies of mind, to annihilate the other kid, and now seeing the clear picture where I am in fight modus, to see that in those fights I was attacking myself and shadows of my own mind.
I would within this opening of memories look into myself being in a fight, going into a fight, and see in clarity that I was only fighting myself. I was fighting ghosts of my mind. Energies I could not define, that I would oppose and throw my fist against. It was like shadow boxing. All the time and occations where I was fighting - only against my own mind reactions, and energies.
Self forgiveness:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight other people in school to justify my believes, energies and my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold against the people, in school until this day, the emotional blame and judgments against them as a person, for how we were fighting in school almost 30 years ago.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the energies of my mind that I would react to and then project these energies onto other people, and there for think I have to fight and defeat what I had projected of energies onto other people, and then seeing this energy within the other and holding that as a reason to fight the other being/pupil.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think "Ah man; it is all so easy to see now" - when I better know my mind and how it works.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think low of myself, and inferiorise myself for not seeing this before now - the fact that I was only fighting myself - all those years all those tears.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit my confidence and creativity in school, from always seeing, the same errors from before and always struggling with school, and always ending up angry and in fights - in opposition to the general system and life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight to win, in school when fighting in school, was mostly about justifying ego.
These interviews at the Atlanteans series, from eqafe.com are really unique, to understand, learn and redefine fighting within mind and within self and ones living experience.
Enjoy :
https://eqafe.com/p/fighting-ourselves-and-others-atlanteans-part-482
https://eqafe.com/p/more-dimensions-to-fighting-atlanteans-part-483
https://eqafe.com/p/redefining-fighting-within-and-without-atlanteans-part-484
https://eqafe.com/p/fighting-and-sounding-self-forgiveness-atlanteans-part-485